I didn't break my bad habits as well as I thought I did. I'm not quite sure what to do about it yet.
I've watched youtube videos for six hours straight instead of doing the assignment that was due yesterday
I have a casual sex with my former chemistry professor until today .. and one day I had a dream where I was having sex with him, in the dream he explain to me about thermodynamics and calculating Ideal Gas Phase and Boyle's Law etc. It was hot then until I woke up and it was the weirdest dream I have. Well out of my curiosity I actually told him that if he could explain me about thermodynamics more while having sex. He thinks I'm crazy and out of my mind but I just do. Actually it was pretty hot. He's so hot telling me smart things along with the sex. It works actually. But I told him to stop because I actually started having feelings for him just because of that. (Please don't judge me I know I sound crazy)....
I have been absent in my college for so long I m afraid attendance is gonna be huge pain in ass for me to be honest I don't like being in college I just wanna stay in my own room that's all
When I'm at home I get absolutely no studying done but if I go to the library and sit my ass down the text starts forming.
I've procrastinated for so long that I have two days left to do three assignments. Which would be... about 5000 words altogether.
I sometimes wonder, will I still be a scientist despite my depression and PTSD? Will I learn better if theres no depression and PTSD happening to me? Or I'm really dumb? Did i expect too high? Did I do anything wrong. I love science and I took other things but I just love science. I love it but everything to me personally is difficult. I want to be a better student.. how is that even possible?
Like yeah i DON'T CARE if you dont like me but if youre a TA and I need your help i think you need to do your job and get off the biased shit and be civilized and answer my question. Im not here to fight im here to learn dammit. -_- every single time man every single time
I submitted an assignment that was only 2/3 done but got a grade of 4 out of 5. Ha! I'm totally gonna continue doing just the bare minimum.
i moved to this city months ago for uni stuffs. and here i am feel alone, nobody remembers me, nobody cares. i just want to go home