Towards the end of school, i completely lost all motivation. I was handing in stuff later and procrastinating more than i had ever done before, which is really saying something. I dont really know why it happened, but i started telling myself that i just didnt care. That i knew i wasnt going to do very well and that i was okay with that. I did almost no revision up until right before the exams. And then i took them all, and for most of them i thought that it didnt go as bad as i was expecting. That im at least going to pass. I tried convincing myself that i was okay with getting C's, that i was expecting it. But when i got two C's and a D, god damn i was heart broken. Especially since for my best subject i was actually almost expecting a B. For a lot of people these results are great, especially since im not trying to get into any uni right now, but my whole life my family has told me that im super intelligent, that i could get A's, but clearly thats just not the case, and im trying to be positive about it but i cant. I hate myself for the way i just stopped trying but tbh i dont think i could have prevented it
Republicans are racist? If you really believe the party that freed the slaves, ended segregation, passed the civil rights act, and deployed the 101st airborne to make sure black kids could go to school with white kids are racist . . . YOU MIGHT BE BRAINWASHED!
I've been out of school for a while, but recently started to get nightmares about it again. They come more and more frequently and become worse, making me actually exhausted when I wake up because I spent the whole time of the dream panting and clenching my muscles (not to mention how I can barely concentrate on anything because I can't forget the dream). I know what they mean; there's always a past trauma in the story. But I wish I knew why they're coming NOW. And how I can stop them.
The globalists are trying to destroy the United States of America. They are doing this by making it popular to say the United States isn't great, by cheering those who take a knee during the national anthem, and by declaring that pledging allegiance to the flag is racist. The lemmings have no idea how good they have it. With great sadness I see how globalists will destroy America from within.
When I was a junior in high school, (2010) I made a birthday cake for my math teacher (64years old) and my whole math class. I put a fat brick of weed butter in the cake mix. I never told any of them. They loved the cake though, it got devoured.
I'll miss my math professor. So gorgeous... but I have to move on. Pass or fail it was nice having her though.
I LITERALLY JUST GOT BACK HOME AND ONLY WANTED TO INFORM THINGS THAT I THOUGHT COULD BE USEFUL AND THEN U HAD TO GET ON MY ASS ABOUT ME MAKING THINGS CONFUSING AND WRONG.. WELL SORRY IF IM BUSY AS FUCK AND COULD ONLY HANDLE A HANDFUL OF INFORMATION SHOVED INTO MY BRAIN OVER THE 12 HOURS THAT I WILLINGLY AND NON WILLINGLY HAS TO STAY JUST SO THINGS WOULD GO WELL. GUESS I DONT HAVE TO HELP U ANYMORE THAN
being a woman is a burden in life. you always have to choose between family or higher education/career. doing both is always a possibility, but it'll still be slower and harder.
I don't know what I am doing. I missed a whole third of the school year by being depressive and demotivated or, in short, inefficient: I failed two of my subjects (Math and French) and got at least a B in all others. I cringed at all my tests when I got them back, even if it was an A. This whole Schoolyear was more based on luck than on reason for me. Shit is going to be important now; I can't "minmax" my grades and skip school like that, Finals are coming up.
So I met this girl in the middle of last semester and I kind of knew that she was into me at the time, the thing was that I thought I would never see her again because we are studying completely different courses. But ever since I met her, I saw her a lot of times and the thing is that she was really cool and I want to talk to her again but every time I see her I am with my friends and it is not option to ditch my friends just to talk to her and I know she still remembers me because holds a gaze and smiles at me every time she sees me, I just wish I can have another opportunity to talk to her again