I hate the idea that if you have a talent, it's your duty to better it and use it. Everyone older than me keeps saying that. I don't LIKE writing, or translating texts, or analyzing literature, and I have no fucking interest in linguistics. Honestly, I'm not sure how my teachers came to the conclusion that I'm so good at those things but they're boring. Since middle school, people have been expecting me to become some successful academic or shit, but I don't want any of that. Even when I had a cleaning job, my coworkers told me they expect me to do something "way bigger" and leave the job soon. I'm sick of hearing about it. I want to do something simple and unnoticeable with my life!
im addicted to learning spanish
There's this guy I know, he was studying Chemistry in college and is failing it. But I know so well he's a Computer Science smart. He just knows better than me. I told him why not move to it because you're better at it. He just told me that he loves Chemistry so much that despite failure he'll pursue it. Because it's what he loves the most. He loves what he does. And I don't know is he right? I'm a linguistic prodigy as a kid but I hate people telling me this and that about it. And when I grew up I left the subject completely just to do business. I don't like it too much but I just know It's rather more practical (not in college btw). I make so much money from it but I'm not really happy. But I get this freedom and I can do everything I want but I'm way too busy and I'm not really happy. For this guy, he told me that he likes what he does. How does it feel like to fail in something you love the most? Because I don't understand him... And I'm completely lost in life. I'm only 21.....
I'm over a year late in my studies. I feel like I have no hope for future. I've fucked everything up. And I didn't even go to group therapy yesterday, all because I felt like the outside air would be uncomfortable on my oily face and hair. And I had actually washed my face! What is self-control.
My friend asked me via texting how my studying is going. It's going horribly. I told her I'm behind on "some courses", she asked what was up. The real reasons for it are laziness, depression and anxiety but I don't really know if I'd want her to know about that. But I don't want to lie either, so I don't know what to say.
My genius friends always say they cant do the exam like literally not answering even one question then grabbing those grades while i'm just that one dumb boy who study hard all day long but not getting any smarter, sigh.
Gimme some motivation to study hard please?
I just got accepted in new college and It was out of my expectation. I got a bad scores on mid-term and the academic system on my college has a minimum GPA, which is 2.75. If you have an accumulated scores under that standard, you will drop out. I'm scared. I wish, I can boost my scores to improve my GPA. Wish me luck
I feel like a liar as I search for diagnosis for my chronic illness. I am often in pain, have joint popping and numbness. Being very physically weak is difficult for me as I am a high school student and want to be able to help everyone but Im so tired and unstable. I near passed out all afternoon today and my friend who I normally walk with didnt care I was feeling ill and got mad for me asking to walk with her. She had a date. I was worried about passing out and getting hit by a car. I feel bad for being a burden. All i want to do is make them happy, but I need to be healthy.
I don't know, but I've lost my natural ability to pronounce the english "soft th"-sound correctly as I grew up. My tongue somehow changed it's proportions in puberty and over the last few month, and still, I have to retrain pronouncing that without spitting, because it stands in my way of getting an A/1 in english. The bizarre thing is, I start to like the sound of my, now obvious, german accent. Phonetically, the letter "ß" (best described as a "hissing s sound") is a valid substitute for "th" in my opinion, it just makes it so much easier to talk freely.