I kinda miss my ex bff but well life goes on.
I got the money now I dont have to pretend anymore, fuck all of you.
When I still was in school, a student of my school committed suicide. Of course the principal gave a speech about it so everyone knew. I didn't know the kid, and except for his classmates, neither did anyone else. I was friends with a girl from his class and she told me that he was one of those shy kids that never talk to anyone besides 2 or 3 friends (in their 5 years of going to the same class she hadn't talked to him once and wasn't the only one). But still people were like "Derek, we miss you" (his name wasn't Derek. I have no idea what his name was) or "what a tragedy, he was so smart and talented". Nobody of the whole school cared about him when he was alive, so why pretend to care when he's dead?
I can't stand this anymore. I give up.
im going on a 5-day class filed trip next week and im getting a lot of irrational anxiety about it cause im not the most social of people nor am i used to this kind of stuff cause so far ive only been once on a class trip and it was in 8th grade and lasted 3 days and it was really fun. I seriously cant realize why im freaking out at all but i am freaking out bad, i realize its only one week and it'll pass by super fast and i'll have fun but im just freaking out cause im going to another country, 18 hours away from my own and since im still a kid every little thing is basically the end of the world for me, so i can say i see this situation from both perspectives but i still cant calm myself down. Any advice on how to finally calm down and enjoy myself instead of constantly freaking out?
HAAAAAAHAAAAAA I knew you were gay before everyone else, maybe even before you knew yourself X)
My friends got in but I didn't. Ouch.
My school has gone to complete shit ever since they set up new rules and regulations. A girl got sent home because she had a strip of white on her FORMAL - BLACK shoes. 2 boys in my school got internal isolation because their FORMAL - BLACK shoe wasn't polished. My friend's sister got sent home because her shoe WASN'T made from ONE material. I got in trouble because my skirt was AN INCH above my fucking kneecap. Lockers aren't available because it's a "health and safety" issue. If you get caught with a phone it will get confiscated and your parents will be notified AND they would have to pick it up the next day at 7AM. A friend of mine got her phone taken away when she was on her way HOME; so hide your wife, hide your kids, they would probably get confiscated too. There's more but this will get too long. Long story short, our school sucks.
tension in study!!!! omg!!!!
I really want to get an A for my Mathematics exam for the the first and last :) my mathematics keep failed almost all exam that I've sit, no matter how hard Ive work for my mathematics it keep failed 😭😪😐i just feel i wanna give up right now