When I was in 5th grade these girls I went to school with and were the same age as me moved in next door. I wanted to be friends with them. But they liked my older sister more. And it pissed me off. My sister had friends of her own, why would she want to hang out with kids 4-6 years younger than her? I never had kids my age live close enough to play, and it pissed me off that my sister took that away from me. If it was just me, they probably would've hung out with me. But if they had my sister as an option, they'd pick her. And it sucked. Yes, I didn't like playing outside as much as they did. But I probably would've liked it better if I didn't feel like a second choice. Now we're all grown up and living our own lives. I haven't talked to them since high school. I'm not mad at my sister or the girls. I just realized they didn't like me how I am, and I can't change that. I never wanted to change. I'm still not very sociable and I don't have friends, but that's just how I am and I'm ok with it. The main reason I'm glad those girls moved in is that it gave me people to sit with on the bus and at lunch. I would've been a very lonely child if I had to make friends on my own. If my mom was able to, and if I knew this was an option, I would've begged to be homeschooled.
I dunno why I go into the lost and found at school and take out dirty lost socks and masturbate to them. But I get so hard over it
There's this one little girl (she's my age but because of her height she's been called a midget. We both are 22 now) keeps on bullying me behind my back, in front of others. I don't understand her. She keeps on talking bad things about me that I don't even know about. That I don't even remember ever conversing to her normally unless she's asking for homework details. Then after I answered her she starts saying that I'm a ms-know-it-all. Oh my tiny little creature. Please do ask our teacher about the details next time yeah gurl.
I was that kind of guy in school who covers his test answers so the neighbor can't copy them. I didn't do this because I hate people, but because I was always so sure that what I was writing was stupid that I was too ashamed of anyone seeing it.
I am planning something like vegas buying guns is so easy here, columbine will look like a child game.
I'm finally ready to cut all ties with family. all I have to do is be patient and calm for 4 months and I will never have to contact any of them again in life because it's better to die alone for what you believe in and to better yourself than to stay around crabs in a barrel that doesn't care about the benefits of living a passionate life and actually putting in the work and patience to get there
I kinda miss my ex bff but well life goes on.
I got the money now I dont have to pretend anymore, fuck all of you.
When I still was in school, a student of my school committed suicide. Of course the principal gave a speech about it so everyone knew. I didn't know the kid, and except for his classmates, neither did anyone else. I was friends with a girl from his class and she told me that he was one of those shy kids that never talk to anyone besides 2 or 3 friends (in their 5 years of going to the same class she hadn't talked to him once and wasn't the only one). But still people were like "Derek, we miss you" (his name wasn't Derek. I have no idea what his name was) or "what a tragedy, he was so smart and talented". Nobody of the whole school cared about him when he was alive, so why pretend to care when he's dead?
I can't stand this anymore. I give up.