I'm feeling quite emotionally distant recently, as in I'm not really feeling much of anything, especially stress/worry. This wouldn't be an issue at all, except those are what normally motivate me to do work, especially over the holidays when I don't see my teachers everyday. So now I have 3 days left until I'm back at school and I haven't done any of the really important work that I was supposed to have done, and I'm not even that stressed about it. I'm actually feeling stressed more about not feeling stressed about work than the actual stress about work. I really don't know what I'm going to do
i was in my final year of school (year 12). there was a new teacher straight from university was only 5 years older then me. some how I managed to fucked her at my year 12 formal after party
You captivated me and acted like nothing goes wrong? And you became a innocent? You've already deceived me and I know you did that fucking shit. You're like a coin. Unfortunately not valuable, but two faced :)
I didn't break my bad habits as well as I thought I did. I'm not quite sure what to do about it yet.
I've watched youtube videos for six hours straight instead of doing the assignment that was due yesterday
I have a casual sex with my former chemistry professor until today .. and one day I had a dream where I was having sex with him, in the dream he explain to me about thermodynamics and calculating Ideal Gas Phase and Boyle's Law etc. It was hot then until I woke up and it was the weirdest dream I have. Well out of my curiosity I actually told him that if he could explain me about thermodynamics more while having sex. He thinks I'm crazy and out of my mind but I just do. Actually it was pretty hot. He's so hot telling me smart things along with the sex. It works actually. But I told him to stop because I actually started having feelings for him just because of that. (Please don't judge me I know I sound crazy)....
I have been absent in my college for so long I m afraid attendance is gonna be huge pain in ass for me to be honest I don't like being in college I just wanna stay in my own room that's all
When I'm at home I get absolutely no studying done but if I go to the library and sit my ass down the text starts forming.
I've procrastinated for so long that I have two days left to do three assignments. Which would be... about 5000 words altogether.
I sometimes wonder, will I still be a scientist despite my depression and PTSD? Will I learn better if theres no depression and PTSD happening to me? Or I'm really dumb? Did i expect too high? Did I do anything wrong. I love science and I took other things but I just love science. I love it but everything to me personally is difficult. I want to be a better student.. how is that even possible?