We are supposed to do a presentation for college, it has to be a scientific one (not like those half-hearted 5-min-preparation-time speeches you do in school). We aren't, by all means, allowed to use wikipedia. Only scientific articles. Well, I never understand anything in those kinds of articles, so... I used wikipedia. Only. Of course I will say that my sources were scientific articles, but I am still... I don't know, I am so nervous. That it will be noticable.
the day of my high school graduation in front of the whole family my mother went off about how my brothers and I are ingrates, ungreatful, idiots, and entitled millenials. as a direct contradiction to what she was saying, the three of us kids sat in silence and accepted her authority as we always do, and instead of speaking we just THOUGHT about how we could be like other kids doing drugs and getting drunk or pregantant or suspended or falling classes or cussing our parents out - but we arent. my older brother was telling me later, in private, how mad he was bc my parents essentially think he's a failure for no good reason (he's in school and working a job) and I realized then I thought nothing of it. my mom keeps asking why we want to move out and live in dorms, and it's because its no longer just hiding from her and avoiding talking to her - its gotten to the point where she berates me on MY night in front of my family while i dont say a word and take it because I basically expected it. im unphased. this doesnt surprise me. just another shit day in this shit house.
I am procrastinating right now because everytime I try to sit down and start preparing the presentation I have to give, I start crying out of panic. I hate presentations, have no idea what I'm supposed to do and hate the topic.Should I just never go to uni again?
What's the difference between materialistic world and material world?
I'm so embarrassed because at school I was only wearing one headphone so I could talk to my friend and the person on the other side of me put the headphone in her ear without me noticing and she tapped my shoulder and was like ''you really like this music?'' Because I was listening to a really weird song since I was looking for new music. Jesus, I'm so embarrassed. How can I get over this? I know it's minor but it's a big deal to me.
Im such a hypocrite. Im so ugly yet i only want a hot girl. Yes i know, but i can't help myself. Im incredibly attracted to hot girls, even though i know they treat me like dirt on their shoe and would never ever want to date me. At least i recognize im the problem so even though it doesnt change anything, at least im not going to be that horrible person who thinks less of women for not dating me. I wouldnt date me!
I feel so thight and I am just 12 ):
I think black people who bow down to whites disgusting. Show some self respect. If whites dont like you for who you are then screw 'em. They are NOT better than you. They are blessed with genetics on the outside but internally? you are a stronger person. Whites could NEVER cope with what blacks have had and still do face every single day. This is what makes Blacks better...and no that's not racism against whites, its acknowledging they have an easier privileged life which makes them spoilt and self entitled..
'Do i really want to do this for the rest of my life, or even for five years?' is a thought that whirling through my mind. And its killing me. I dont know if i want this but even worse i dont know what i want if i quit. I quit before, and threw 2 years away already. Also why do all my friends have all things perfectly sorted out. So many questions and need some answers fast.
most people would be surprised by what I'm capable of if I had resources opportunity and time...everyone but myself that is.