i was 100% sure that i could sign up to take the test to get into university until 29/09 but turns out it was just until 17/09.. there's no way i'll tell my parents, i'll just pretend to do the test and then say i didnt pass.
I deserve a break.. I need a break.. I am having a break.. I'm just going to drink coffee and sit on my computer all day long doing nothing.
modern mom...... I order my kids school fundraisers and special lunches online.. ... It's actually kind of nice.
Yesterday, after school, I was sitting down on the floor against a wall in an empty hallway when this random girl walked past me and said ''you're really pretty.'' I was so shocked my jaw dropped and I said ''wow thank you!'' then I went outside and sat down on same bench as this guy who I didn't know and he started talking to me and asked me for my phone number. Today, I was walking to the bathroom and there was a group of girls from dance class practicing out in the middle of the hallway and as I walked past them, one of them pointed straight at me and said ''you're pretty'' I smiled at her and said ''thank you!'' but when I got to the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror, and all I could see was a pale, scrawny little girl with thin, frizzy hair, dead, sleepy eyes, oily skin, chapped lips and the yellow stain on my jeans. if I'm so 'pretty,' then why do I recoil with disgust every time I see myself in pictures or in the mirror? I've tried telling myself I'm pretty and tried to find things I like about myself but I can't find any. I genuinely think I'm ugly. And I'm not just saying that for sympathy or because I want to get comments on this confession telling me I'm beautiful. I just want to know, we're those people lying to me??? Were those girls who called me pretty lying because I'm actually so ugly that they felt sorry for me? Or is it that I just can't see what they see? And if so, how can I make myself see what they see?
Is it normal that having a crush on someone you can't possibly have feels like nostalgia without the rose-tainted memories? Well, it sucks, any Idea of how to stop having a crush?
one day in school e pick my money then someone stole me e pick my knife and kill him
I thought university went well until I got my exam results. I failed all of them miserably. The thing is, I really did everything I could do, so it's not done with "studying more" or "trying harder next time". I know I have to drop out, but I don't have a Plan B. I have to start all over again and don't know how I'm going to do it.
when you're not in the mood to do anything 😂😂
i went to a brothel and actually seen one of my former high school teachers working there
I wish I could go back to high school where the work was easy and people thought I was clever. How pathetic that my slightly better than average GCSE results will be my magnum opus. I'm going to fail my A Levels and let everyone down because I am not intelligent. I feel so worthless because I'm not clever, I'm not good at anything and I'll never be a success. My parents are already disappointed in me, in my outlook, in the subjects that I've taken, in how lazy I've become, they've already told me. I just want to die and I know that sounds so idiotic, they're just A Levels but really they're not, they dictate the rest of my life, where I can go to university, what jobs I can get, how much money I can earn etc. I'm just so trapped by my idiocy and it's not something I can change no matter how hard I work, no matter how much I plan and revise it will always, always hold me back. What's the point in living a mediocre life where all you are is a disappointment to everyone around you including yourself? How will I ever be happy if I always know that I am a failure, sub par, an incompetent person?