I literally don't think there's a group of high school/college kids that get shit on more than theater kids. Or any kid in the arts, period. They get the short end every single time and they have to put up with so much shit it's not even funny.
Well this is the second girl who wanted to take me to prom this year😂 I'm 20 and graduated... My twin brother's gf is in her grad year, so with that connection, a couple girls were asking her if I'd go with them. That's a confidence booster.😊 I've been to prom twice btw, and would have gone a third time, but I said no because we had broken up.
i feel alone. i feel empty. i feel numb. there's nobody i know left to talk to. i only have 3 people. one worries and overreacts and already has their own problems. one doesn't show any interest. and one i already bother with some of my prolems and i feel bad and embarassed about it. so here i am. having nobody. i feel i am slipping back into depression and even though school is ending in a few days and everybody believes we'll be okay when it ends, i know i won't. i feel it. because i'm sinking and there's nobody there to save me.
Started watching 13 Reasons Why but I realized halfway through the episode that I was watching the finale... I kept watching... Holy fuck...
We are supposed to do a presentation for college, it has to be a scientific one (not like those half-hearted 5-min-preparation-time speeches you do in school). We aren't, by all means, allowed to use wikipedia. Only scientific articles. Well, I never understand anything in those kinds of articles, so... I used wikipedia. Only. Of course I will say that my sources were scientific articles, but I am still... I don't know, I am so nervous. That it will be noticable.
the day of my high school graduation in front of the whole family my mother went off about how my brothers and I are ingrates, ungreatful, idiots, and entitled millenials. as a direct contradiction to what she was saying, the three of us kids sat in silence and accepted her authority as we always do, and instead of speaking we just THOUGHT about how we could be like other kids doing drugs and getting drunk or pregantant or suspended or falling classes or cussing our parents out - but we arent. my older brother was telling me later, in private, how mad he was bc my parents essentially think he's a failure for no good reason (he's in school and working a job) and I realized then I thought nothing of it. my mom keeps asking why we want to move out and live in dorms, and it's because its no longer just hiding from her and avoiding talking to her - its gotten to the point where she berates me on MY night in front of my family while i dont say a word and take it because I basically expected it. im unphased. this doesnt surprise me. just another shit day in this shit house.
I am procrastinating right now because everytime I try to sit down and start preparing the presentation I have to give, I start crying out of panic. I hate presentations, have no idea what I'm supposed to do and hate the topic.Should I just never go to uni again?
What's the difference between materialistic world and material world?
I'm so embarrassed because at school I was only wearing one headphone so I could talk to my friend and the person on the other side of me put the headphone in her ear without me noticing and she tapped my shoulder and was like ''you really like this music?'' Because I was listening to a really weird song since I was looking for new music. Jesus, I'm so embarrassed. How can I get over this? I know it's minor but it's a big deal to me.
Im such a hypocrite. Im so ugly yet i only want a hot girl. Yes i know, but i can't help myself. Im incredibly attracted to hot girls, even though i know they treat me like dirt on their shoe and would never ever want to date me. At least i recognize im the problem so even though it doesnt change anything, at least im not going to be that horrible person who thinks less of women for not dating me. I wouldnt date me!