I dream about sex with the professors I hate and honestly it helps me handle the fucking class and pass it. And how many professors? Imagine someone who fucked the whole class... not lecture just average class. but its not healthy and very weird so I need to stop it. (Yes its not normal thats why I express it here because knowing me and this id be a dead man walking) its hard to stop it because its a habit drug like a placeabo effect. But now i failed a class for the first time so now this one professor.... well i imafine sex with him but i torture him in my imagination and it helps me cope up. But again its not healthy as if my mind is controlling me... i seek doctors for this but im too afraid id be judged by them. Theyre professionals I know but theyre people too. I cant afford the things they might say behind me... and yes i witnessed some psychologist talk their work outside work.. it gets me paranoid so I trusted nobody anymore even the person i should trust.
What does solid reason mean?
I'm feeling quite emotionally distant recently, as in I'm not really feeling much of anything, especially stress/worry. This wouldn't be an issue at all, except those are what normally motivate me to do work, especially over the holidays when I don't see my teachers everyday. So now I have 3 days left until I'm back at school and I haven't done any of the really important work that I was supposed to have done, and I'm not even that stressed about it. I'm actually feeling stressed more about not feeling stressed about work than the actual stress about work. I really don't know what I'm going to do
i was in my final year of school (year 12). there was a new teacher straight from university was only 5 years older then me. some how I managed to fucked her at my year 12 formal after party
You captivated me and acted like nothing goes wrong? And you became a innocent? You've already deceived me and I know you did that fucking shit. You're like a coin. Unfortunately not valuable, but two faced :)
I didn't break my bad habits as well as I thought I did. I'm not quite sure what to do about it yet.
I've watched youtube videos for six hours straight instead of doing the assignment that was due yesterday
I have a casual sex with my former chemistry professor until today .. and one day I had a dream where I was having sex with him, in the dream he explain to me about thermodynamics and calculating Ideal Gas Phase and Boyle's Law etc. It was hot then until I woke up and it was the weirdest dream I have. Well out of my curiosity I actually told him that if he could explain me about thermodynamics more while having sex. He thinks I'm crazy and out of my mind but I just do. Actually it was pretty hot. He's so hot telling me smart things along with the sex. It works actually. But I told him to stop because I actually started having feelings for him just because of that. (Please don't judge me I know I sound crazy)....
I have been absent in my college for so long I m afraid attendance is gonna be huge pain in ass for me to be honest I don't like being in college I just wanna stay in my own room that's all
When I'm at home I get absolutely no studying done but if I go to the library and sit my ass down the text starts forming.