Gimme some motivation to study hard please?
I just got accepted in new college and It was out of my expectation. I got a bad scores on mid-term and the academic system on my college has a minimum GPA, which is 2.75. If you have an accumulated scores under that standard, you will drop out. I'm scared. I wish, I can boost my scores to improve my GPA. Wish me luck
I feel like a liar as I search for diagnosis for my chronic illness. I am often in pain, have joint popping and numbness. Being very physically weak is difficult for me as I am a high school student and want to be able to help everyone but Im so tired and unstable. I near passed out all afternoon today and my friend who I normally walk with didnt care I was feeling ill and got mad for me asking to walk with her. She had a date. I was worried about passing out and getting hit by a car. I feel bad for being a burden. All i want to do is make them happy, but I need to be healthy.
I don't know, but I've lost my natural ability to pronounce the english "soft th"-sound correctly as I grew up. My tongue somehow changed it's proportions in puberty and over the last few month, and still, I have to retrain pronouncing that without spitting, because it stands in my way of getting an A/1 in english. The bizarre thing is, I start to like the sound of my, now obvious, german accent. Phonetically, the letter "ß" (best described as a "hissing s sound") is a valid substitute for "th" in my opinion, it just makes it so much easier to talk freely.
I slept with a ta last night it was fabulous.
In hindsight, school was, or rather could have been, a wonderful time. I dreaded going to school, I hated it and couldn't wait to get out of there. But now, having more knowledge and being wiser, I realize that all the fears I had were pointless, how easy school was compared to adult life and how much fun I actually had but never appreciated because I was too angry about things that didn't matter. I really wish I could go back with the knowledge I have now, to make it the "best time of my life" that people always talk about.
I'm a university student. I didn't do an assignment on time, asked for extra time and STILL didn't do it. The extended deadline was half an hour ago. I didn't not do it because it was hard, it's because I'm lazy and didn't even try to write. I don't have the guts to tell this to my professor or anyone else so I'm writing it here.
I hate introduction rounds that new teachers make you do. Like "tell the class 3 fun facts about yourself" or something. I never know what to say; in the one hand, my life isn't exciting, and on the other hand, I don't want to share personal details with the whole class. But if you just make something up, people will eventually find out that you lied and this is awkward as hell. I wish teachers would stop doing this.
Something awkward that happened today. A girl sat next to me on the bus and introduced herself to me. I did the same and then I placed my hand in front of her for her to shake because that's how my dad raised me. For a moment she only stared at it. I began to wonder whether I just did something weird and I was so mortified I couldn't even look at her, but I couldn't bring myself to take my hand down, either. That would have been humiliating as well. Eventually, she shook my hand, albeit rather hesitantly, and she said: “Your fingers are freezing." I didn't know how to respond to that. She held my fingers with both her hands and began to rub them as if she were trying to warm them up. This surprised me greatly, and I’m certain I was blushing. I slowly took my hand away from her grasp and hugged my backpack, staring at the floor and wishing the bus would drive faster. This made her laugh. I don't know why. And now I can't stop thinking about the whole thing and feeling embarrassed all over again.
My therapist appointment is too far away and I feel awful. Yesterday in class I felt so stupid when I didn't find answers in the texts we had to read. And last week I couldn't understand a word after the teacher explained it to me. Also, like usual I've been too scared to talk to anybody. I can't talk to anyone but this site.