midterm reaaally makes me sick
I just had a taxation test yesterday and I knew it just didn't go well as my expectation. I hope the score isn't bad 😕
I have to make a presentation for tomorrow but it's hard to focus because I keep cying
I really tired. I lost many things in this week. so i must buy it again. My tasks never end. The event on my campus also oh God i just want to rest, and take 'me time' on this weekend
I don't know what bullcrap is going on at my kid's school but I think it has something to do with race. It's a biracial situation. My wife is Philippine/Chinese and I'm German/Brit. I volunteered at my son's school and one of his classmates was shocked when I said I was "X's dad." That's normal right? We went to Philippines and people asked her "Who is the White kid you are babysitting?" I didn't think anything of it. Now he's asking if his mother had a first husband or if he is adopted. When I tell him old stories from our ancestors I keep having to explain to him we have the same ancestors. He is my blood son. I can't help but feel a little insulted. The teacher is some weird clown haired woman who thinks race wars and gay sex is appropriate subjects for first graders. She has a weird political obsession with race and she knows Jack shit about it. Taught my son that "Brown" people couldn't go to school with Whites. Likely referring to him. Utter bullshit. Asians, Latinos, and Natives did not get separate schools during segregation. Not that ANY of his ancestors even lived in the US at the time. I don't know what to do here. Maybe I'm taking this too personal. Side note: There is no such race as Brown, and calling an Asian that is 10x more insulting then calling him a yellow man.
Less than a week, I'll have a midterm. I hope I can face it well. Wish me luck😊
I’m going through something... and I feel so alone. My friends... they’re leaving me behind. I can’t catch up to them anymore. If I’m ever mentioned, it’s to pick on my mistakes. I hate how things have become now. I hate how tense everything is. I don’t trust any of my friends now, since they seem to be anything but trustworthy. I can only depend on my family but they wouldn’t understand this... I’m tired. So, so tired.
I really love my best friend but because she is the prettiest and most popular girl in the school and has a great body and next to her I am invisible I am very jealous of her. I secretly wish she would gain 30 pounds and start looking very ugly and I get prettier than I am now so everyone would start saying I am better than her and all the boys in my school would want to fuck me
My anxiety has been eating me away lately. I feel useless, wake up crying for no reason, feel as if I deserve nothing that's been going on for me, feel stupid. I feel as if none of my professors would understand that I'm not capable of doing the work I'm supposed to because every time I try to work I start to get very negative and self-deprecative thoughts. Idk what to do or who to go to. Not even exercise is doing it for me anymore.
popular unpopular opinion: i love how college degree snobs try to pressure you to go to college to validate their time there. saying "oh do u want to spend your life in retail? do u want a real job" but the joke is I know lots of people with a mountain of debt for some flimsy area of study with a degree that is i useless to the market working retail. and the other joke is automation is STILL coming for a lot of jobs that used to need "educated" people. so you'll actually be behind your non degree having counterparts in 5-10 years in terms of wealth. Many of the major tech companies aren't requiring CS degrees anymore (this is my new field) and my previous area of work as a counselor, I was strategic about padding my resume with volunteering in the areas of health community and domestic violence. After the college admissions scandal, things are even more funny. College has allowed a lot of uninteresting indistinguishable mentally lazy no drive or hustle having people get really comfortable feeling like they did something really unique and difficult but all you did is go down the road most traveled until people came trampling in over you.