No matter how much you said you'll keep in contact for you will ALWAYS fall out at the end. It's sad but I guess that's life, sooner or later they'll just become a pure bittersweet distant memory. That's the ugly side of post high school.
I finished my research program, and I made it. I finished the shit out of it. I was in a foreign land with shit American colleagues (nice Thai colleagues though very nice people). But I made it, I finished it. I learned a lot in life from it more than the research. One thing I learned, I have to really know myself before deciding on doing things.
Everyone talks about how cool being an exchange student is. What no one tells you is that being an introvert exchange student sucks, specially if you go alone. I'm alone on a Friday night at a shopping mall half an inch from an anxiety attack killing time until the movie I want to see starts.
H.ello. E.motions get in the way at times. L.aughing is getting harder and harder each day. P.anic rises in me for the smallest things. M.y memory is failing me. E.njoyment can only be found in instruments.
I hate when people read out loud what I have written. I cringe really hard where it physically hurts me. Even when I'm confident of what I have written!! I just tune out what they say but I still wince.
I'm feeling worst. I think I'm the stupid person in the world. I know I will take a small grade at the math exam and I know it looks stupid, but my chances at the most wanted high school have died
I'm so sad in this moment.. I know I will take a small grade at the math exam and I know it looks stupid, but my chances at the wanted high school have died.
so, todayyyyyyyyyyyy... such a sucks.. I must finish my assignment, and thank goodness I finished it.. but, I get babbling from my mother.. and not only about that, I get offended with this word " u only eat and sleep all dayyyy longgg, what make u busy?" oh hello? l doesn't sleep at night until 4am okayyyyy, u're on ur bed how u know about what I'm doing last night 🤦 I really get offended! and also, I have hamster and they are so cute! but, I doesn't have my time to look at them bcze of my assignment! I don't have many time u know! so, it's about 1week I didn't get them cage clean.. and yeaa .. babbling of course!! I'm so stressful
I am in a place where I fought to be. And I feel like I should be happier and be doing more. However, the pressure I feel to do my best and to perform well is so big that I can't sleep and I can't work properly. Has any of this happened to you?
I just got a English paper , and I got 25/40 in my essay and 31/40 in my other pper .. when it combine , I get grade B. 70% .. all my friends get 75 above...hmmm