I feel like a failure.. Times getting short and not any of my thesis are done. My lecturer are really hard to reach on and I'm afraid I couldn't finish it in the remaining 5 months. I'm really scared, I don't know.. I don't want to be a failure to my parents of course, but I don't know what to do.
I was gonna prep for this conference which was pretty prestigious. And it was my first one too and I'm still an undergrad. But I decided to opt out of it just because of my health. I know it's a waste of my opportunity but idk why, for the first time of my life, I've never been so much happier giving something up for the sake of my own health. Well maybe because this time my actual physical health was affected. But if I have done the same in the past. If I have set aside the research opportunities I applied to that I got into for the sake of my mental health, I think I would've been so much happier then and would be more ready in the future. But giving something so prestige over my health makes me understand that prestige means nothing over something precious which is my life. I felt human for the first time tbh.
I'm always curious, if ya'll don't mind what's the reason why you and your boyfriend/girlfriend, fiancee/fiance, husband/wife breakup and/or divorce?
Im a paraglider pilot.. not a good one.. but i love it!! I almost died today.. the thing is.. im not even mad hahaha or sad.. i mean.. im happy to be alive of course but if i die someday with my glider.. its ok.. at least i was doing what i love..
They torture me with their perfect life. How to overcome it? I try my best to accustomed to, but It ends up not really well😕
I've been currently having a big crush on Zedd. I love Zedd soo muchh. Why he is soo attractive asdfghjkl I cantt handle itt😵😍
I (F/19) got payed to strip for a birthday Party. When i came in, there were only boys about 14-16. I laught it of and wanted to leave, but they told me i already got the money and if i leave their going to sue me. So after i got my Drink i started to feel dizzy and passed out. When i woke up i was completly tied up and my ass was in the Air. For about an hour i was raped by those 7 Kids again and again but at the end i kinda enjoyed it.
when i was 7, there was this man that lived with my family and at this time i was sick, so i wouldnt go to school. my mom was always on drugs and never really paid attention. He would touch me and kiss me and i wouldnt say anything out of fear. one day he got me to lay on the floor (he was leaving for mexico so there wasnt a bed)and i was face down so my back was to him. he got on top of me and started rubbing his crotch against my ass. Then i heard him unzip his pants so i did the first thing i could and got up and ran. He then found me in the living room and gave me a bullshit lie like he wasnt going to do anything. this happend for a long time then he left. i have a hard time with having a boyfriend. i also find older guys attractive now. there ages range from 15 which is my age to 40 something years old. i still cry when i think about it but what can i do. i wish someone was there to protect me.
It's been a month since I stop being cheerful to anyone cause i just feel like that I was the only person who care to them but they aren't. Then, one of my friend thinks that I'm in the bad mood. But no, I just stop talking to people that i'm not comfortable with. I'm tired that I always treat them well, while I always received pain. So, I just treat them cold now, i better go back in highschool which is my bestfriends still be my bestfriends until now. And now, i don't have anyone who close with me. Nevermind, i need to cut off this friendshit. I have to put myself first! 😊 I deserve to be happy too.
are you guys feel disgusted to have a friend who has sucked taste of everything?