I'm an 18 year old female and a senior in high school, just to clarify. So last night I had a dream about getting really intimate with my anatomy teacher. Like, it wasn't full on sex, just a lot of touching and kissing and all that. I've always found him attractive, but he's 37 and married and he's got a kid. I have no fucking idea what that dream was supposed to mean, but og my God it was probably one of the best dreams I've ever had.
I hate the city I live in. if it wasn't for my kid who lives with his mom there, I would have moved to another city or state. but i want to be close to him. I guess deep down I blame him for not being able to move to a city that I like. but i won't ever tell him, won't ever hurt him.
when i was a kid, might have been 8 or 9 , one or two friends of mine were coming to my house in the afternoon to play, I would close the door of my bedroom, and I'd tell them to take their clothes off, and I'd tell them to play with their penis, or stand one next to each other and make their penis touch one another. now, thinking about it , my mom must have known for sure what we were doing, and she never interfered, letting me experiment my first sexuality curiosities. I remember it being a game we were playing quite a lot.
I asked a psychic when I'm going to die and I regret it. My friend wanted to go so I went with her. Psychic told me I'll die within 1 year and to stay away from anything that has a motor. Now I'm laying in bed doubting myself that what are the odds of it being true..not going to lie I'm pretty paranoid
I caught my bf & my bff talking shit about me,- like getting me to leave the room talking shit about me when I called them out on it they both of course claimed innocence. I haven't talked to her since and he is adamant that I'm just losing it. why can't I find an actual friend?! everyone either does me wrong like this or actually moves on & does something with their life. I'm still here. hiding away because I'm scared to death of what the future holds.
A while ago I did something really stupid and I just found out that I could've died or at least get sick. I wanted to pour the fluid out of a room fragrance bottle into another (prettier) bottle. The opening of the second bottle was really small, and the opening of the first was weird, so I first poured the fluid into a regular, empty water bottle and then into the second one. I somehow forgot that I did this and filled the water bottle with water. And drank it. It tasted bitter, but I first didn't know why so I drank more, until it got too bitter to stand it. I have no idea why I did this. The fluid is toxic. I wonder how I'm still alive. I had no signs of sickness at all.
I just started crying and worrying a lot. My boss is trying to force me to engage and build rapport with customers. It's not that I don't know what to do. I'm not stupid and I'm not lazy. I just can't do it. I can't engage with them and make it sound natural. I'm a shy and transactional kind of person. When I have to call for something outside of work, I want to get right to the point and get my things done. I don't want to shoot the shit with people I don't know. Dead air sounds awkward but so is trying to force a conversation and knowing my supervisor and quality assurance will hear it. I don't care if I'll never speak to that person again, I'll still remember it in all it's cringy glory. In less than 2 weeks I'm starting training for a new project at the call center and I'm scared. My supervisor doesn't believe I can do it if I can't build rapport. I believed in myself and was excited until that was said and now I don't think I can do it. My boyfriend asked his sister for advice. He didn't tell me most of what was said, but the only thing he told me is that she said I basically just have to do it not because I want to but because the boss said so. That doesn't help me. I'm trying to forget what his sister said and not imagine the rest of what she told my boyfriend. I'm trying to remember my supervisor just met me a week or two ago and doesn't know me or what I can do. I'm trying to focus on the positives but it's hard. I've worked in call centers for two years, I know how building rapport works in theory. But I can't just change my entire personality on the phones overnight. I've been working on being less robotic and filling dead air for two years. I'm sick of it.
to all Australians, the law on marriage has not changed yet. the survey was only to see what Australia thought about it.
Since my early childhood years, I know where my mom hides birthday and Christmas presents. And since my early childhood years, I go and look for my presents as soon as they're there. It is never worth it, because it spoils the surprise and happy anticipation. But I can't stop myself. It's like trying to not eat the whole ice cream bowl. You know you'll feel bad afterwards, but you still can't stop.
my boss want me to take more job, as an addition to my job as operator, he wants me to work as a teacher too..I'm cool with that as long as I get a raise too.. let's be honest.. i'm a professional, my work here based on my salary..not based on loyalty or friendships, for me those things are just a bonus...sorry for being realistic but I can't eat or buy things I need with loyalty or friendships