It must have been that pink, these two days have been craving botta le labbra.
I'll just whistle blow and confess. I had a teacher in elementary school who actually tutored me and gave me so much guides to pass the exam. Little that I know the question and answers were all the things in the exam. I got a perfect score in all my classes ( 8 classes). My conscience hits me often and I felt deeply that I didn't deserve to be an honors kid then because my tutor who is my teacher gave me all the answers to the exam. I didn't get in trouble for it though.... though my teacher then knows I have a crush on him and I was thinking that's probably the reason why. But it was really unfair to other kids like me who get a perfect score as well and get no aid (or maybe they did because I found out when I was in high school, five of us are receiving the same situation). But it was my guilt all throughout. When I moved in a different country and in my middle school days I'm not getting perfect scores anymore and that teacher isn't my tutor anymore. I have no tutor but I still get good grades though. and in High School when I took the SAT exam, I got a perfect score but even though I know I have no tutor or is not cheating, it always reminds me of that guilt I had as a kid. So after that I literally and purposely make one answer wrong for the sake of not having a perfect score because I know I don't deserve it so on my other college exam (ACT) I almost aced it with. Now though I'm applying for an MCAT and I know I'm more mature and a grown person but for some reason I still have a guilt and probably I'll more likely and purposely wrong an answer I know on the exam but I wanna get over that guilt I just don't know how...
sometimes i throw up after i eat a lot of food. i just want to be beautiful and loved.
Roses are red, my heart all sort of red because of you.
So, I live in a care home and one of my care workers, (Who I have a thing for.) Was spying on me in the shower. I didn't think anything of it. However, the other day we were watching a movie in my bedroom and she said, "I saw you showering the other day. You were massaging that huge snake of yours. Perhaps you could come to mine and shower with me?" I didn't say nothing, but I'm suppose to go around on Friday. I really don't know what to do as I'm a virgin.
So if a girl like a guy, confesses her crush to him, and he gently rejects her, but says he really appreciates her as a friend (he's sincere about it) Then he meets someone, falls in love, tells the world and all his friends how happy he is, this girl tells him: Oh she might be not right for you, and she'll make you change your lifestyle. He ofcourse ignores her feeble attempts, proposes to the woman he loves, everyone is congratulating him. She sends him an email trying to tell him h ed made a big mistake, tries to make his fiancee sound bad for him etc He decides this friendship isn't worth the drama and stops talking to her. Calling him and sobbing about it should be her instead. Years passed, he's happily married, he once sent a group "happy new year " message to everyone in his friends list. That girl immediately thinks it's a sign for her to weasel back in his life. Now she's sending him texts and losing her shit because he's not answering them. What do you think about this girl? A thot? Or what? Also His wife doesn't care for trashy stereotypical "leave my husband alone" kind of confrontations and doesn't consider her as a threat at all.
Yesterday I had a poop so big it wouldn't flush. I flushed twice and it just wouldn't go down. I probably could blame the low flow toilets, but that was honestly the King Kong of turds. One of those where my belly hurt so much before and instantly felt better. The janitor came in right after I left. I'm sorry Willy, I didn't know what to do. But I went back later and the out of order sign wasn't on the stall so it must've went down somehow. There were a couple of other girls who left the bathroom at the same time as me so hopefully he doesn't know which one of us left that surprise.
when i was 16, me and my cousin started hooking up. she used to come over to my house everyday . it started with us playing "wrestling" ..one thing lead to another .. the crazy part was that' i was a virgin, i lost my virginity to my cousin .we hooked up a few times, there was one moment we had around Christmas. she came over and got very drunk 😏 she couldnt hold back. she didnt care anymore and came into my room that night. we were so loud, im surprised we didnt get caught.. to be continued 😉
I hate randomly waking up after only a few hours of precious sleep, and despite trying, being unable to fall asleep again. I'm so exhausted that my head hurts, I feel like someone parked a car on my face. I'm tired. Why can't I sleep?
I grew up in the US and I hated it there. It's so hard to make friends.. for introverts... I'm always lonely and depressed and life is very demanding. When I moved in the Philippines, it was easy to connect with people "in person". Yeah the country can be unsafe, and can be damn humid but I love the people here. The people that I met somehow cured my depression. Yeah bad health care as well but I love it here! I love the food, the culture, events, and I can live by the limitations of that from the first world country. I dont really care what my parents think, I live my Filipino heritage and their social connection. Something considered awkward when I was in the US.