It's very easy to get one-itis as a teenager. It's easy to say, "I'd die for you." When you have nothing to live for yet. I stumbled on the Facebook of my high school crush. She's pretty lame now. She has massive student debt from a useless photography degree. She spams anti-vaxx stuff all over her facebook, and she named her kid after a really lame discount romance novel author. 10 years is a very long time in life.
Had I realized I wasn't going to join club 27 and blow my brains out, I probably would have finished College the first time. Now I'm a grown ass man going to college. I still haven't made my fortune in life. I'll be honest. I regret it. Learn from my mistakes. Don't do as I did.
Some of you might remember some posts I made about 6 months ago, and a few other times since then. My cat went missing and I was devastated. I did everything I could to find him, but every lead turned out to be a dead end. Flash back to last weekend. A strange number calls the house, and since the person's last name is Wine, my mom decides to answer out of curiosity. Ms. Wine says she has my cat. Skeptical, my mom asks some more questions... Ms. Wine got the phone number off of his tag. After 6 months, he somehow still had his collar on, and someone kind enough to call us found him. He's very overweight now (which leads me to believe somebody may have taken him, combined with the fact that he was unreasonably far away) but otherwise seems to be in good health. I'm so happy he's home. I'm so relieved that nothing terrible happened to him. I'm so blessed that I'm getting a second chance with him. This time, if I can help it, I'm keeping him indoors. I never wanted him to stay outside anyway, I just had to keep him out there because my mom made me.
My mom is really stressing me out and giving me anxiety a lot lately. I don't know what her deal is, maybe she's stressed about something, but my sister said she hasn't been acting this way towards her. It's just me. Why is she taking it out on me?
I just fucked up a lot. I sold a $10 coffee machine on an internet platform. Someone wanted to buy it, so I gave them my address. Who showed up were 3 guys - I know this is going to make me sound racist, but since most crimes in my area ARE committed by foreigners, I'm going to say it anyways. They were foreigners. I met them outside of my house to give them the item. They tried to talk me into letting them inside the house to "try it out". I honestly had the feeling that they weren't interested in the machine at all; when I tried to show them how it worked, they weren't interested, They just wanted to come inside to try it out. I refused. Then one of them tried to bring down the price, which I also declined, but while talking about it, the other two were walking around the front yard a little, looking into my windows and back yard. They finally left, taking the machine with them. I am now almost completely sure that they weren't interested in coffee at all, and were just trying to check out my house, I guess you know for what. I'm in so much fear now. I live alone and I'm not home most of the day due to work. I don't have any information about them, the internet name is probably fake. I hate myself for doing this; everyone knows that you shouldn't tell strangers your address, and I ignored all the precautions just for $10. It's still not enough to get the police involved, so there's nothing I can do.
my girlfriend's is pregnant. i want a little girl more than anything. and I'm scared if it's a boy that I'm really not going to want it. I honestly couldn't think of anything worse than raising a boy
I thought about him lately, a lot. And last night i dreamt of him. That he called me, and he just wanted to talk to me, he said he misses me. When i woke up i looked into the phone because the dream felt so real. Eventually i decided to call him. We talked about casual things. It felt so nice. I could feel my heart almost jumping out of my chest. But then i hear his girlfriend calling in the background, and he tells her that he's talking on the phone with an old friend. And he will be off in a minute. We were together for a long time. I broke it off because i had to pursue my career, and i was afraid. He said he will wait for me and always love me no matter what. But, i guess now i'm just an old friend.....i feel so stupid, i gave up something i really loved for a job.... How could i be so stupid. I thought my career would make me happy...
Today i woke up pretty early and got an appointment for my job interview, which i am really exited and really nervous about. for a change, i made breakfast. not only was it relatively healthy for a change, but it was also quite good, plus i didnt made a mess out of the kitchen like i usually do when i cook. And on top of all that, when i looked out of my open window, i saw big fluffy flakes of snow falling from the sky. And this made me think. Maybe this will be the change i so desperatly needed in my life. I often got told that i would have depression, and that i need help. But i know for a fact, that thats not true. You cant cure depression, but you can cure a shitty life, and i may have found the remedy. I still got a bit of time before i have to start my old job for the last few months this year again. So i can get my drivers license, get the job for september, and finish a piece of work i started last year. This is the first time i can say this is it without suicidal intend.
Went down the road to a fancy dress party. I was Woody from Toy Story as a gay looking cowboy hat and some jeans are easily accessible at the last minute. Anyway I hooked up and fucked a ghost. At least I thought she was a ghost. Turns out it was just one of the muslim hoe's from next door. Oh well. Least she didn't blow me. Up.
My mother is an awful bigot. She is one of those free love Boomers who hate Christians. She disowned me years ago, but still calls me when she's down. She just got dumped again at the age of 55. Desperately clawing for whatever garbage man will stave off loneliness. So what does she want to chat about? Looking down on Christian morality. She knows I converted as a teen and married a Christian. We even waited for marriage. I just want to tell her, maybe considering my marriage worked and you are alone AGAIN, maybe I was on to something. Sour grapes. Why do I even answer the phone? What's wrong with me?