I leave home at night to take a walk. Very scary, but then I got used to it. The peaceful night walk helps me deal with my emotional problems and mental struggles.
I have a crush on all my Latina female cousins. im 30 years old and they're all around my age range. we grew up together so we are very close. they're all light skin, slim petite, and gorgeous faces. I once had a chance to fuck one of them and my boy's bday party. I was about 24 and she was 21. she got really drunk and went to my boys car to get herself together. my boy said she was looking for me so I went to the car too. she was in the backseat and I sat next to her. even when I was there , she still kept asking for me to me. then she started grabbing on to my thigh and kept saying to take it out. my heart was beating fast from the excitement.. cuz I had been masturbating to her for a long time.. I said take what out and she said my dick as she was trying to pull my zipper down. I was drunk too , and as I was about to take it out, thats when my boy came back and opened the car door. I was trying to get her to sleep over my house but sadly she said no. so the next day, I took her out to eat, to see if she had remembered anything, and if she did I was gona gladly go thru with it. but unfortunately she didn't mention it :( now a few years later, she's married, and I still often reminisce about that time as I masturbate. it would have been amazing if my stupid boy hadn't come back to the car.
been babysitting my niece this summer me and my friends are really going to miss having her around when she goes back to school she's been fun and can keep a secret
i got tapped like 10 times today in bjj between 2 classes. but also i almost got my first armbar, the teacher taught me yesterday and i already used it on a roll, the time ended otherwise i think maybe i would get it :p also i got double legged and hit the floor so hard i saw stars for a second.. im losing more brain cells from bjj than in most of kickboxing and taekwondo sparrin... people who say theres no brain damage in bjj are lying trough their teeth lol. but its just too fun, i cant stop. i cant wait to learn kimuras, Rose's favourite submission Coach complimented me at morning practice , and also my friend told me after i left afternoon practice he complimented me as well :p he said i learn fast. i feel good even tho i got beat up in practice i can feel how im progressing and not stagnant anymore without my art i am sad
I banged a younger girl and it was way better than I thought it would be
had a hell of a day but I did get a hug the person I'm in love with . he told me he wanted to snatch my clothes off and bend me over and fuck me . I wish he could of now I'm home with the man I hate and horny . i want him to treat me like a little slut. Fuck my face spank me and stick that dick in me and make me squirt all over you then fuck my ass and talk dirty to me . cant wait until w are along your every wish is my command sexy...
So I moved to a new state and started a new job at a mexican restaurant recently. New beginning, new chapter in life kinda deal. Meeting my new coworkers, one girl stood out in particular. Beautiful young lady with a handsome chest on her, excellent curves on the waist and a nice little ass to flaunt. My eyes took in the outside while my mouth took in the personality of her. Brilliant, energetic, inquisitive, clever and real sweet. Told myself "I have rule about fraternizing with coworkers but this will be my exception." So I casually ask her how old she is and the answer made me schedule an appointment with the local father of the catholic church. She said 14......I'm 23. After that my eyes burned and my mind blew because the TRICKERY!!!! I've been bamboozled, tricked and deceived!!! And I felt disgusting about myself afterwards.
I love inflicting myself with this new pain. it makes me stronger. Its not physical pain, but more like "inner" pain. I love it...
For people who wants to listen my story: Hey ! I'm french and i hate myself. I hate myself for many things but... I can't forget them or forgive myself. I am in love with the boy I made suffer. He were in love with me like... One year and a half ago, and he is always in love with me but... Before april, i was like telling him i don't love him, and that i hate him but... It was false. And i feel like shit. And i know he will confess his feelings one day, and i know i will be so much happy that i'll confess mine too, but i know, and it's always happening, i know that i 'll hurt him more than i have ever done before, because that's only what i do: hurt. So... I know that i will love him a moment but i know it will end and i don' t know why i'm so f*cking complicated. I wanna be in love with him all my life but i know i 'll hurt him because of my feelings. But even after that, after all i think i can do, i still want to be with him, and i surely want it to last all my life. I really needed to talk about that, and thank you for reading that...
im renting a room and this gross 65 yr old lives on the room right next, he farts loudly all night, makes gross noises, and worst of all he wakes up at 4 am plays country music before going to work. i hate his stupid ass been messing with my sleep. also this place has brown recluse spiders i hate them