Yesterday was my class picture day. We happy, laughing, pose, taking selfies and else. And then time to change the outfit. We change the outfit and waiting for the photographer to prepare the set, while we checking each other appearances to make sure it will be perfect. Then my crush apporach me, asking me to fix his tie. The problem is me and him are not talking for like a whole year and he was dating my friends that knowing my feeling for him—they broke up already. I no longer have feelings for him. But OH MY GOD, me fixing his tie is the first time I fall for him—also my way to flirt with him—and it started to flooding me with those memories all over again. I'm so nervous, sweating, my hands are shaking. Good thing I didn't just hug hin right there. Fyi, everybody in class knkw about that and they teasing me again for that -.-
I decided to finally see a therapist, it's definitely going to break the bank. But I feel lonely and anxious and I have no friends or family I can trust with my problems. And my only friend is my husband, and he can't understand what I'm feeling no matter how much I tried. I'm not going to tell him I'm going to see a therapist though.
10 years ago I met my wife after internet dating for a while. I was head over heels for her and took the chance. She was willing to go all the way the first time we met, but we didn't. We were both virgins at the time. I asked her why she was willing. I was expecting some explanat about the depth of our love. She said I have good genes because I have a high GPA and look like a model. Besides if I leave, no one will ever know because I don't know any of her friends. Is this a common line of thought for women? I recall the song "Name" by Goo Goo Dolls or the line in that Lorde song about those who "Don't dance and tell." Wildest dreams by Taylor Swift. Is this kind of fling a common fantasy for women?
I think I'm into some sort of love-hate feeling. I mean, I hate him that everything he did is wrong in my eyesq, but I love him so much I still put him in my priority. Honestly, I don't know.
Im born a girl and love it. But sometimes I get accussed as a guy or trans. I have nothing against LGBT but I hate being assumed not straight at all... Yeah I have a strong male facial features and my voice is deep when Im sick and that my torso is pretty muscular (im weightlift and swim) but I hate that people assume Im a "sir". Although mostly I just let it go because I know deep inside, Im a woman with xx chromosome, who gets her period etc.. But a frequent assumption pisses me off. And it even pissed me today. I ask this cashier guy if his sir thing is a gender neutral thing. He said, "uhh.. aren't yoy born male? LIKE YOU ARE A GUY DRESSED IN A FEMALE CLOTHING!" I was mad because if I was really a trans that would hurt and he just sounded like a dick!!! But I was just more mad in general because he assumed im a dude... I wasnt hysterical but it didnt end well for him.. and I got my stuff for free.... I didnt take a video because unfortunately my phone died. But if that happened again i swear... 😑😑😑
I can't stop thinking about the girl I raped. I don't even know why I did it, she wasn't even attractive. I apologized so many times, but I know it will never be enough. I ruined an innocent girls life. she was only 16. So was I, but it doesn't matter how young I was, I was still in complete control of my actions. Jesus, I just want to fucking die.
Pseudo-Incel-Date-Guy from over half a year ago here: I just bought a bondage starter kit, because in the last few months it turned out that my girlfriend - ye gods, how I love her - loves being painfully dominated while my darkest, deepest sexual desire is to be dominating...in blind hatred against the pleasures of physical love, I denied that to such a degree that I had almost forgotten about that...It is utmost interesting to me that she is not only the love of my life, but that we, in our kinks, complement each other perfectly - better than I could have always wished for before I gave in to selfhatred. Sometimes life can be good.
I'm usually a rough girl, prefer to do it rough while being tossed around with 2 or more guys. It's exciting, the sensation of being tossed around, fucked rough while he is growling like a tiger, and sucking his dick down to my throat, etc (you know what I mean). But this guy, I love him. He treat me nice, like a princess, slow and calm and soft and total opposite of what I like. It's excite me though cause it's him, still make me wet without tingles that hit your stomach. But I love him, I want him to fuck me rough and totally lose control over it.
I'm always asking myself, if I will lose my apetite over sex. I mean, it sex though. The straighy porn are still nice to watch and make me wet, the lesbians aren't my thing, but the gays are totally give tingles. But I do wonder if the real sex not give that much kick as the porn. I mean, it's different. The make love and the fucking. I don't know, I'm kinda like on the edge now.
So, I take my purity plegde in my highschool year. Now I'm in college and I really want to have a boyfriend. But I'm afraid if he ask for sex, and I say no, and he left me. Like, is it that hard to keep a relationship away from sex for like a couple of years?