i have depression, i wish my boyfriend will initiate to stay with me whenever i need support. i always ask for his company. it can be tiring to keep on asking and it makes me feel more needy. i feel worse. i hate it.
I just got accepted in new college and It was out of my expectation. I got a bad scores on mid-term and the academic system on my college has a minimum GPA, which is 2.75. If you have an accumulated scores under that standard, you will drop out. I'm scared. I wish, I can boost my scores to improve my GPA. Wish me luck
At work, I have a crush on my supervisor (I'll just call him E). He's my age. Well his little brother started working there too, which is cool, he's a nice kid. Well my mom (who works there too) walks up to me and nudges me and says "Wow, look at Mini E. You should get some of that!" I'm disgusted. I know I'm only 22 and he's 18, but he's barely 18 and he is fresh out of high school. I can't believe my mom would say something like that. And she knows I have a crush on E! Why on earth would I hit on his brother?! I just can't stop thinking about it, I'm so upset she even suggested it.
November 23, 2018 Whenever I start or want to do something enthusiasticly it feels like mother always stop me to do just because she thinks it is not right according to her traditional beliefs and own satisfaction. It's tiring. I want to see the world, explore, widen my circle. But I am stuck here because mother thinks it's safe from where I am which is here with her. I want to take risk and learn. I think sometimes the place where you think is safe is not really safe. I am starting to hate my mother but I know I don't have the right. But what she does to me makes me feel depressed and stuck. I want to go away so bad but at the same time I don't want to hurt her and father. I am so messed ): halp.
my bosses brother is kind of sketchy. he comes into the workplace quite often and he puts off a really creepy vibe. all my coworkers feel the same. one said he's pretty sure he only goes after really young girls, like 19 or 20 (he's in his 50s). he's just really offputting. anyways had a nightmare the other night that he tried raping me... kind of forgot about that nightmare when I woke up, until I saw him walk into my work again. it all came flooding back and I had chills. I was disgusted and freaked out over him being there. even though it wasn't real...as if I wasnt already uncomfortable as it was, now I have a mental image of him actually trying something. I need a new job I think
I'm that Pseudo-Incel guy with the date from a few month/quarter a year ago. This is gonna be the ramblings of an 18th-century poet, but I'm in a happy relationship now and probably am the best I've ever been in relation to my mental health and outlook on life...I even had to realize that I do not look that bad. Feeling genuinly loved makes it really damn hard to be hateful - and that's a really good thing. Surely, I dread the day on which the relationship goes to waste, but as long as my girlfriend is the one making somewhat unrealistic but certainly lovely and very desireable plans for our future, I allow myself to live in the illusion that true love is forever...well, I guess love is forever, but only for few - so I hope we're some of the happy few...also: While hatred is a great motivation, loving and being loved makes life overall easier...also we're both very similar people, with similar backstories, who have gotten bullied and wronged a lot in life, it had just felt so very satisfying when we simultaniously came to the conclusion that our relationship is fate's atonement for all the injustice we had to suffer.
explicit: my hand smells like my BFs dick. and its turning me on while im sitting in class
I had a dream last night that I tried some heavy drugs and then tried to look for and murder my friend with a knife. She was hiding from me. I found her, but I thought about it and decided against it, feeling monstrous and leaving her. I then ran into my boss from work, and some employees from the company who I'm contracting, still obviously fucked up on drugs. I felt like my life fell apart, and that I became less than human.
Today I did my workout....I was dressed
This is gonna be kind of explicit, but: I've got a gay crush on this girl I'm friends with. And the feeling is mutual. We've agreed that we should totally hook up sometime, since her boyfriend is into girl-on-girl love and wants to watch. I'm so excited for both of us to find out what sex with a girl is like! So excited, in fact, that I masturbated thinking of it just now, and I had a squirting orgasm for the first time in ages. She's just so damn hot.