I love inflicting myself with this new pain. it makes me stronger. Its not physical pain, but more like "inner" pain. I love it...
For people who wants to listen my story: Hey ! I'm french and i hate myself. I hate myself for many things but... I can't forget them or forgive myself. I am in love with the boy I made suffer. He were in love with me like... One year and a half ago, and he is always in love with me but... Before april, i was like telling him i don't love him, and that i hate him but... It was false. And i feel like shit. And i know he will confess his feelings one day, and i know i will be so much happy that i'll confess mine too, but i know, and it's always happening, i know that i 'll hurt him more than i have ever done before, because that's only what i do: hurt. So... I know that i will love him a moment but i know it will end and i don' t know why i'm so f*cking complicated. I wanna be in love with him all my life but i know i 'll hurt him because of my feelings. But even after that, after all i think i can do, i still want to be with him, and i surely want it to last all my life. I really needed to talk about that, and thank you for reading that...
im renting a room and this gross 65 yr old lives on the room right next, he farts loudly all night, makes gross noises, and worst of all he wakes up at 4 am plays country music before going to work. i hate his stupid ass been messing with my sleep. also this place has brown recluse spiders i hate them
Logically If someone doesn't want you around their place, and you don't want to be in theirs either, you move out... right? Simple solution... I guess(?) I just feel like I want to run away somtimes.
I want to lose weight but I can't stop eating. i just wished I can find a way to avoid food and make sure my parents don't know. i know its risky, but sometimes being fat is unattractive and unhealthy.
I confess when I was 13 I began secretly wearing womens lingerie and clothing I really enjoyed dressing up and would sneak out at night time dressed only in womens clothes, a few months after I was at a park late one night sitting on a bench and nobody knew that I was a male, I started hearing moans coming from the Bush so I sneak a peek through the scrub and nearly fell over, it was my 12 year old sister having sex with 2 blokes ,I took a couple pictures of her and thought I could really use them to black mail her, I headed home but waited under the house for her, she went to go up stairs and I called to her and she come under the house, she looks at me and asked what the fuck are you doing in female clothing I said I enjoy crossdressing and I also going to start enjoying incest sex with you, she stairs at me and said your sick, I said I'm not the one having 3 soms with guys and then show her the pictures I have of her, I moved closer to her and put a hand on her tit and played with it she said stop or I tell and I said and I will show these pictures she said what do you want, I said take your clothes off cause I'm going to start fucking you if you don't want me to say anything, she removed her clothes and I told her to lay down cause tonight is the night I start fucking you,, I fucked her hard and fast and cum deep inside her, I said if you don't want to fall pregnant then you better get on the pill cause everytime I fuck you Im going to keep cumming inside your pussy and you can also start helping me crossdress
i had two martial arts practices today, one was gi jiu jitsu and the other no-gi. im buzzin from it lol it felt so awesome. i cant wait to learn more tomorrow!
I got four fucked up call's today I did them real nice too
i got into a fight with my sister, she apologized but said didnt regret it, i jumped at her and my mom began hitting me with a belt leaving marks, my dad went into a position that could have killed me. i am the blacksheep of the family but am i in the wrong? ps my mom hates me and my sister now....
I called a bill collector today and I told her to take out her titties and she hung up on me