My mom died when i was 18 and my dad just died this January. I'm 24 about to be 25 and i dont know...i hate feeling sorry for myself and it makes me never want to talk about it. It wouldnt fix anything. But my mom and I have birthdays 3 days apart we always celebrated together. Mothers day and fathers day is coming and i just dont know how to feel not many people can relate but they care. I just wanted to share that.
What would u do if u breakup with someone that you will see everyday.. Is it okay to go to ur job wearing the best of ur clothes and smiling the whole time to make them feel regret or jealousy or you jst don't give it that importance?
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Gahhhh I'm so infatuated with him and it doesn't make sense. I feel so overwhelmed. It feels nice but also horrible? Stupid celebrity crushes...
This happened almost 3 years ago. PS: I'm not a good storyteller and my English sucks. Sorry in advance. Elli ( not he's real name) okay so I used to call him KUYA (big brother) he's not a friend mine because obviously I was way younger than him, I was like 15 at that time and he was like 26/25 year's old. We weren't closed but we kinda talked to each other sometimes. Btw he's my friend's older brother that's why we're kind of talking . So around May, there's a festival in town so everyones busy and excited about it coz local artists and bands are going to perform there. Meanwhile at that time I was looking for someone to go with coz my friend's didn't invite me at all...And thankfully I have someone I know who can go with me, but apparently he isn't alone he's with his friends. Male friends. I didn't know until i've seen them nearing Elli's house ( I was waiting for him at Elli's house btw) and Elli asked me if I'm going to the festival. I said yes. And he asked for my number just in case my so-called acquaintance for the night will ditched me after the festival ( because I need a ride home u know). And yes obviously he's gonna be there too with his batchmates in highschool. And yes they ditched me😭 thankfully my I Elli called me I told him what happened. So he looked for me because there's a lot of people, worst is that it's raining really hard and I'm wet and my phone died (WTF MOMENTS) thankfully he found me. All his friends are grown ups . They're looking at me like I was lost. Thankfully they resumed drinking and I was sitting beside Elli. I was cold. He noticed that. And then suddenly he hugged me. I was dumbfounded , I didn't know what to do. And (WTF moments happened again) he pulled me closer to sit on his lap. Can you imagine my face while he's doing it. I can't even. And then his friends asked me If I can drink beer ( I shamelessly noddey head.) I can feel my face heated while he's whispering in my ear. " Are u cold?' I just nodded. The rain didn't stop at all but I can almost hear my own heartbeat. I am no innocent, I've watch adult vedios before and my friends haved told me information about IT. I was drinking the beer when he cupped my breasts while his face is my neck. I can feel his breathing. I stared at him looking horrified of his actions. BUT I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO STOP HIM . Part of me is horrified but i'm more confused. I never thought of him like this. His mom is very much proud of him because of his work. But little did she know that her son is double faced. Before this all happened I remember him being casual to me, almost cold. Like a big brother. And now? WTF . Before I could react one of his friends asked him if he's gonna go home already since his other friends didn't bring his car. He nodded and let go of me. I felt relived. Just then he grabbed my hand and he told that we're going home. I just nodded. While in the car he keep glancing at me. It made me self conscious for a moment. We dropped off his friends. And BOOOMMM we're alone. I was very nervous at that time. While he's driving I asked him I if could borrow his power bank (My brain finally working) since my phone died (to text my brother to come and pick me up, because I didn't feel safe around him at all.) He suddenly parked and stopped the engine and looked at me. And then he kissed me. And the stupid fucking me kissed him back. ( at that very moment I knew somethings gonna happen between us. That's for sure) He kissed me again and again and then he touched my boobs . I didn't know how to respond. Lots of thoughts are going to my mind. What if he'll kill me if I won't kissed him back, what ifs... And then he stopped. He fucking smiled. Without saying a word.He start the car engine and and start driving again. He stopped and park his car. He proceed to grab my hand. I was very nervous. And then finally asked him what are we doing outside a motel. He then told me we're staying there for tonight because he's too tired to drive and I'm totally wet from the rain. I told him that it's okay i'm fine and I just need to go home before my parents get worried of me. He then to told me that he'll explain everything to my parents when we gets home tomorrow morning. I nodded in defeat. We checked in, and he paid for paid for only one room. I was about pay for mine when he told that he there's two beds. I decided not to complain because im too cold to argue with him (the AC's on blast ). Just when I thought things are gonna get fine since there's a two bed , turns out it's only one. He lied ( Is he gonna rape me here. FML) I was very confused when he suddenly stripped in front of me. ( It's my first time seeing a naked man in real life AND I AM NOT READY ) he casually put his clothes to the bed and proceed to the shower. I was sitting in bed . when he comes out of the shower ( with a towel around his body this time THANK GOD)and he told me to take a shower too. without saying a word I proceeded to take a shower and I just realized then that I don't have any clothes ( they're all wet.) I just took the the other towel put it around me and wash my wet clothes and hanged it after. After that I comes out of the shower just to meet his gazed, his lying in bed with a towel around his waist. He suddenly gets up and then walked and then he's in front of me.He stared at me for a moment and I stared back awkwardly. He slowly started kissing me and I kissed back ( I planned to give him bj to satisfy the mad man ) He took of the the towel in his waist and them mine. I was embarrassed. I couldn't even look at him in the eye. He lays me in bed but still kissing me.I was nervous. I'm a virgin. What if I'll get pregnant ? I told him that and his response " Don't worry dili lagi ka ma buros." and then he started kissing me gain and he's starting to touch my everywhere he groped my boobs and I started to whimpered. He and then he touched me THERE! I stopped kissing him tried pushing him. But he pulled me easily that his "thing " is in front of me. It's my first time seeing something it in person o don't know what to feel . I decided to stick with my plan and start giving him a bj (YUCK ) it's didn't taste nice at all but I continued and then he fixed my hair and hold it . He told me to look at him while doing it. But I didn't. He demanded again and then started saying F words (I'm choking and he seems to enjoy it, MAD MAN) Something white comes out (EWWW) I almost vommit. I pulled it out of my mouth laid beside him thankful that it's done. ( Well everyone, he isn't done at all) he suddenly got up and started kissing me again his hands, everywhere and then I keep on telling him I can't do it yet.BUT he's stonger than I am. I just laid there while watching him doing something to me. I was too tired . I can't fight back. I'm no longer a virgin. After that he confessed to me that he likes me. (WTF MOMENTS AGAIN) In the morning he acted like nothing happened. Back to his big brother awra again. SORRY FOR THE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS AGAIN. THIS IS TRUE STORY. I HAVEN'T TOLD ANYONE ABOUT, NOT EVEN MY SISTER. I DECIDED TO SHARE IT. Feel free to ask me questions. I am more than willing to respond. THANK YOU
I suppose this is a good place to tell the family secrets about the Nazi era. Since no one will ever find out who I am. So my great grandfather served with the Nazi army. Apparently he was in the March on Russia. They got trapped in a blizzard behind enemy lines and had to hole up in a morgue until the Panzer division could clear an escape route. After that he was captured by the Americans in Italy, whom he said were very nice. His nephew (whom I met and was very good to my mixed race family) wasn't so lucky. Captured by Ruskies and enslaved in the gulag for 7 years. That's not the wierdest part. Great Grandpa? He was 1/4 Jewish. It just wasn't on his papers because his father, the half-Jew, was an illegitimate child. Maybe the weirdest part of the story is my grandma, who married great grandpa's son, was adopted, and her adoption records were classified under the Nazi military and are still sealed. Why the hell would the military classify adoption records?
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I was employed in secret service under George W. Bush. 9/11 was orchestrated by Bush himself along with the Bin Laden family. I now live in hiding under an assumed name because of what I found out.
I luv some1 who is ignoring me but we used to talk well .. how to get back to our old friendship !
So apparently my mother has been going around town telling people that I "Married the first woman to offer me pussy." Now she wonders why I'm mad at her? First of all, my mother has tried to hook me up with trailer trash for years. When I was 15 she tried to get me to date a pregnant 16 year old. When I said no, she assumed I was gay. I turned down mamy women because I have standards. I have turned down women who are much better than her. Second, I reject the idea that my value is based on who I choose to fuck. Especially from a woman who spent over 20 years fucking an illiterate dropout before he got sick of her and dumped her. My wife is ten times the woman she will ever be. Smarter, stronger, better looking, more successful. Now that her fuck buddy dumped her, I'm supposed to console her? Ha fucking ha, bitch. Who, can't get laid now?