Tomorrow is the day across the park. My Valentine's gift would be a medal. :) I wish I could get the first place.
Mr.Owl.? Are you there.? :)
Today, he was sitting in front of me. He asked me either I could see the photographer taking pic of us or not...but I don't mind also because I could see him secretly. I smiled to him. :') "When you see the sun in the morning and you don't see any clouds and you know it's gonna be a good day. That's how I feel".
I wrote a somthing but I dont want people to know I wrote it so hear it is •~~•~~•~~•~~•~~•~~•~~•~~•~~•~~• You may shove my face deep within the ground headfirst, however, without a doubt you will not catch me frown. You could push me tease me pull me bite me, however; you'll never see that tear Falling down. Those words And names you use against me may sound like nothing, but They are knifes pushing against my skin making the deepest kind of wound. Although this may hurt me. You'll never watch me put my head down.My smile protects me Like how the moon covers the sky. You may not see it, but underneath this cover I have wounds cuts and scars. Surprised you may be to hear this from my mouth but don't act differently because the way you have treated me has shaped me into who I am now
I have this crush . i know that I shouldn't just think about him but I started walking with him even if I never walk home (i take the train), between classes I go to see him , he dosen't know that I like him . i would like to tell him but I'm going to high school next year so I rather not tell him
I had gotten out of the shower and was still naked when someone knocked on the door. My fiance answered the door while I hid in the closet. It's been like 15 minutes and the people are apparently selling and testing a vacuum. Gtfo of my house, y'all! We're broke and we're not buying your vacuum. God bless my fiance's friendly nature towards people but for crap's sake, get out of my house! I've got to get ready for work and I don't want to interact with them. Every time I hear the girl do her closing spiel and the vacuum starts again I quietly lose my damn mind. We get it, it's a vacuum, we have one in the other closet. Get out. I think I've heard him say "no thank you" already and what I thought was the closing spiel three times already. Move on! Come on guys, seriously. I have to leave in 9 minutes and my plan to leave early is already shot. Gtfo of my freaking house. It's now been 30 minutes and I'm losing my temper. Wtf kinda sales pitch takes 30 god damn fucking minutes? I don't give a fuck about this fucking vacuum I just want to get ready for work in peace instead of hearing some stranger in my house. I sent my fiance a message asking him if they can leave so I don't have to interact with them but his phone must be in the other room.
I had a cold but it got so bad that I felt like I was boiling inside. I went to my doc just to make sure and I had the common cold and dehydration. I figured that I had a cold but dehydration ?? then later on at work under stress I really felt the effects body shaking, vision bad, and a headache growing. I felt like I was dying. I had to scream out loud in the walk in freight. 2nd time getting sick this season.
I can't forget the experience at the gym where I made a mistake while doing a yoga demo with a teacher, I dropped her. :(
A long time ago, I went to a party in the woods. I snuck off to pee at some point. When I was almost done, I heard a voice right next to my ear very harshly whisper "Whattttt are you going to wipe with slutttt?" I jumped and screamed, and honestly...peed on myself a little, but there was absolutely nobody there. Nobody. There. Either someone followed me, watched me pee, scared the shit out of me and vanished like a ninja, or I was legitimately hearing voices. I think about it every day and I'm not sure which is scarier.
I have great passion for science and I love it. But my GPA is dropping with it, I'm staying 2 more years in college with it , and my student loans are piling up. It was my fault, I listened to my mom who forced me to start college when I don't want to yet. I wasn't ready, I wanna save first, I wanna invest money, I wanna help myself with mental health. But I started college. After that I didn't do good, I keep failing, I have no motivation in life. Then I keep having suicidal attempts. My suicidal attempts is only when my mom understood why I need to stop school for a while but I couldn't stop anymore because now I'm wasting time and student loans keep accruding. On my 3rd year college, I got better, got myself up a bit. My gpa is still okay but not as high as high school. I didnt want to change major because I love science thaaaat much! Then I met a guy, whom I fell in love with. He's kind, he's loving, he's caring. He has dreams and passion. And I'd like to have a future with him. I changed majors so I can graduate early and be with him. Plus i want science a Ph.D in science. I want lesser student loans and better GPA in a much better university. My boyfriend wants me to move with him but I have to graduate first, then I have to save first, then have extra to pay off student loans. But he isn't willing for a long distance relationship for two years. And often times that already made me think, he always just thinks about himself. That I'm just his side hussle. That sometimes I felt like an object to him. That I do sense he's not willing to work for things when it gets hard because I have seen it when he got me pregnant (I miscarried our child) he wants to leave me. And sometimes when he's concerned, I don't sense his genuineness. I talk to him out of him so many times but idk it seemed hard for him and I'm getting tired. I wasn't ready to move and I have dreams too but him only knowing it and lacking to understand me as an individual makes it hard for us to pursue a relationship and even more for a long distance. I'm willing to make it work but sometimes I don't because that he's immature to begin with. I just can't be with a guy who isn't willing to work a relationship just because they think way too much of themselves only and ignoring the fact that I have dreams too. It's hard for me to let him go but it's what everyone says, we don't always end up with our first love. I dated guys in the past and hi. I LOVE him but I wanna be free.... ..... But I felt I wasted so much time express my love for him.