i can never tell people that i believe my father would kill me if i ever stood up to him. i truly believe he hates me. and if he does at this point i no longer care. but i miss the days we would drive around together and sing old rocks songs. i miss the memory of my dad, I DONT miss the angry abusive man who handcuffed me to my brother and told me i was a dissapointment and threw things at me when he got mad
i cut ties with my abusive family. now im realizing after i am done lying to myself i have a lot of serious issues from the mental and emotional abuse. it scares me. i Don't know if i can ever forgive them
I was dreaming of someone since I was young. around 16 years old I look for him so hard Man in black sweater ,white shirt inside, his hair is black too and Gray brackground. I thought may be someone in tv that I watched but I never find him. So, until one day 2016 I've watched a program in tv. That program is about travel of the boy group singer. in first time I don't think that much because I focus on their activity (so funny) then music of program tittle is shake my heart and follow some sound that I really like his sound. Finally, I met him! I saw a picture before he debut. Oh my god I can't believe it. And I am a fan of him now because I wanna hear his voice forever.
What about about to confess is an incredibly first world problem, and I realize that, but that's why I'm talking about it here and not anywhere else. I'm honestly really bummed out about Animal Crossing: New Horizons for the simple fact that I can't play it. I don't have a Switch, and I won't for... probably a very long time. This is a stupid thing to be sad over, except that my sadness goes beyond pouting about a video game. I'm sad because I've been living on the brink of poverty my whole life; I've got just enough to get by, but not much extra. And I'm grateful I have that much. But I have never been able to afford to be into the popular things that all my peers were into until way later when all the prices dropped. I'm lucky I ever got to play games at all, but it's incredibly frustrating to always be late to the party. By the time I show up and start getting into something, everyone else is already done with it and over it. I never get to enjoy games with my friends, and I certainly don't make new ones over it. I just started playing Minecraft this year, and I really like it, but when I talk about it, people just scoff and roll their eyes and disdainfully scorn me with 'oh, you still play that?' And that's just the story of my life. And I'm tired of it. I'm tired of getting game systems years later after the next console gets put on the market. I'm tired of having to wait until games are out of date to be able to afford them. I'm tired of not being able to play games with my friends... Video games are such a huge part of our society in this culture, and I feel disconnected from the entire world because I'm always a step behind. I just feel that same pain I felt as a kid when I was excluded from everything, except back then everyone was talking about trading Pokémon on their Gameboys, and now everyone's talking about visiting each other's islands on their Switches. Just once I wish I could afford to catch up and hop on the stupid bandwagon.
My family and I have committed a crime, because they had no other choice and they did everything they could to keeps us safe. I was also dragged into it. I was a little kid at the time. Now, I feel like I wont be able to get a job because of it. I talked about it to some trustworthy friends, they said even though I committed it and I had no other choice, I'm not a psychopath. But to me technically, I'm still a criminal. I have to live with the guilt and it still haunts me. I want to start to go to therapy, because of the depression I been developing, but I don't want to tell my therapist about it. Sometimes, I feel that everyone, including god is against me. The only way out is to end it. Believing in reincarnation motivates me more to kill myself. Maybe for once, I get to experience happiness in the other life. I could start out clean. (The crime my family and I committed had nothing to do with murder or harming others, but I rather keep it anonymous)
I've been in love with my biological sister ever since I can remember. iv told every gf I've had about it and some like it and pretend to be her during sex and even wore her clothes died their hair and some just go along with it till they get annoyed cause it's the only topic that turns me on. I recently told my sister about it and made a horrible attempt to be with her it didn't work out and now she wont talk to me .
every since I was a little girl I've had this fantasy about being gang raped by a group of strange men. I constantly catch myself daydreaming about it. I get so turned on when i imagine being held down and having my mouth pussy and ass filled with cock against my will.
I need a job but I'm too lazy to work
I'm terrifyingly jealous of my half brother for having both parents, even if they're split. Our dad didn't want me, signed his legal rights away. completely emancipated himself. but he loves my brother dearly. We're two years apart. I can't stop thinking about it. it just stings. #DaddyIssues...
When i was still in middle school i always helped everyone that needed anything even if i didn't like them. Trough the years i realized that makes them take me as someone they can use, so i stopped but they still remembered me as kind little girl. Then i was starting to get depressed, not just because they were treating me like I'm nothing but also because of everything else. Once i started to learn how to be optimistic and that got me out of depression and I'm really proud of myself for this. Now that some year passed i realized that other people smiling makes me happy so i learned myself to have humor. PEOPLE THAT'S POSSIBLE! And yeah i didn't know that's possible and I'm proud again. Well now that i know i like seeing other people happy i think I'm gonna start doing kind this again and also SAY HI WHEN I PASS SOMEONE EVEN IF HE/SHE IS COMPLITE STRANGER BUT IT MAY MAKE THEIR DAY so heck yeah