I once shit on the carpet and blamed it on my baby brother. He couldn't talk yet and he received a royal spanking and I remember hin wailing for being punished for something he didn't do. I still feel bad about it, unless he's being a punk.
Screw you for making me feel bad for trying to do nice things! Screw u for making me feel inferior. Screw you that even tho I know your suffering I still have to love you and help you because I do genuinely care even tho you knew I was in a toxic situation and have trauma about this stuff and all you did was add unknowing or not. Why don't people think through thoroughly before they do something. Don't you know everyone is suffering and has hurts and happiness you can help heal or make worse just by your actions?? Why couldn't you see I was hurting? Why didn't you notice. Why is your pain more important then mine? Screw u my pain matters I don't have to feel like scum because you did something stupid cuz you weren't honest or didn't think.
I grabbed my dad's junk when I was 4-6 (it was a long time ago, I don't remember my exact age). I wanted to know what it was, since I didn't have one and neither did my mom. This was after we went to the lake, he was changing out of his speedos (yes, he wore flipping speedos) and I thought it looked ~weird~, and I wanted to know what it was. I was a really... handsy kid. Every time I remember this I can feel the vomit building up in my stomach. I've never told anyone this, and I never will. And I feel like everyone involved has elected to forget this... incident.
i dont know why he refused to talk to me and blocked me each time i tried. what can i do now except from turning the page ? 🤔
one of my fantasy is to brake into a home with a family still there the home would have two very young girls ..I would make the father have sex with the little girls at gun point. the mother would be tied up and made to watch..
explicit: when I was around 10-11, I used to go with my parents to a county club near us. there was a 13 year old boy who also went there and we would hang out behind one of the buildings (which was still a somewhat public area). one day, we were running around, and his pants fell down a bit cause he didn't wear a belt. his dick was out and I asked if I could touch it. he said yes and I ended up jerking him off without even knowing what I was doing. he asked if he could see my pussy, I said yes, and he started fingered me. we ended up doing that a few other times when we hung out. I think its because of that, that I love the idea of fucking in public now.
due to how neglected/emotionally abused i was as a child, i dont feel motivation anymore or joy for most things. the only thing that makes me feel okay is attention, and i hate getting it for some reason. even though I love attention, I still feel like it's wrong getting it.
when I was in the 6th grade, I went to my neighbor's house where the three girls, showed me their pussies. I was embarrassed, but eventually showed them my dick. we were prepubescent and had no hair on genitals yet. I liked that I could see her entire pussy with no hair on it, but embarrassed that I didn't have any hair on mine. That changed when I got puberty at 11 years old. had erections constantly!!!
Does anyone else get that guilty feeling in your gut about some stupid shit you done years ago when you were younger? I do. Still haunts me. -_-
I feel shame and guilt over the fact that when I was being raped and sexually abused as a young child by my dad I had orgasims and sometimes even anticipated the sexual abuse I became use to that feeling and now as an adult I don't know how to have orgasims without thinking about what he did to me and it makes me sick to think about it all.....