Time for random thought from childhood. When adults say to girls that "he picks on you because he likes you", I think a more accurate way to describe the situation is "He has a crush on you and he hates it". Either that or he doesn't like her at all and just picks on her for fun like kids tend to do.
When I was a kid and had my first guitar lesson, neither I nor my teacher could open the guitar box. It apparently was a quite unique box with a "complicated" opening system (quite easy to open actually, once you found out how). So my first guitar lesson got cancelled because we were too stupid to open the box.
#metoo I was around 9 years old and almost everyday during that summer my babysitter would make me do things to her and she would do things to me as soon as my parents were gone. If I tried to say no they would threaten to tell my parents because they had convinced me it was all my fault. I was only 9.
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I definately preference girls. I always have. but won't know how to please her and I'm 21
The other day while cleaning my house and my kids where at school I found a bubble wand I bought for one of my son's. I picked it up and i remembered how happy it made me to blow bubbles as a kid. Instead of putting them away, I went out side and blew some bubbles. I enjoyed it as a kid and I still enjoy it at 33. Just because I am an adult doesn't mean I can't take a moment and enjoy something. I felt happier doing it despite the shaking if heads and dirty looks I got from people. I'm going to do it because I like and it's fun, I'm not hurting anyone.
When I grew up and started to learn about pubic hair, I thought that it grew also ON the penis. I actually believed that for a really long time. I was already having my first boyfriend when it dawned on me that it might not be like this. I was imagining hairy penises all the time and was so grossed out by it
How do you actually heal from the past that has been done 10 years ago? And I'll just be frank I'm not really a forgiving person because I have kept grudge on something worst that hurt me the most emotionally and mentally. I shouldn't mention her name but what she did is horrible to me. One factor maybe why I have a long term depression, anxiety disorder and literal impaired past memories that hinders me to live my life. That girl Hearty I never forgotten. And someday I'll find a way to forgive her if I could just wish, life would give me a chance to talk to her again and ask her why she did that to me (why she bullied me, why she uses her authority as a class president and lead me to fail all of my classes and why the rest of the class also bullied me and pick on me and she exclude me from others all the time).. And honestly answers is the only way for me to heal. But if I can, I wish I could find a way to actually heal without the need of talking to her. I might just end up violent to this girl and I don't want that. SHe might have done really horrible things besides bullying me but it doesnt me she deserve the worst. I just wish I could forgive her seriously... Besides that, I wish I could also forgive the people that sexually abused me. My cousin (but again I don' want my mom and her sister to fight massively before) --> my cousin actually raped a woman and got her pregnant and my aunt never paid for the responsibility instead it was just a shame for the woman he raped. And the teacher that also mentally abused me causing conflicts with my family and why I was depressed a kid. Also that person that destroyed my book when I was 5th grade and I have to pay a lot of money (to him it was nothing because he's rich and I'm not). I hate that portion of my childhood.I know I have good memories but why THE FUCK I COULDN'T REMEMBER THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?!?!? I always tell myself I serve for other but I COULDNT EVEN LOVE MYSELF!!!!! FUCK THESE PEOPLE!!!!
When I was in 5th grade these girls I went to school with and were the same age as me moved in next door. I wanted to be friends with them. But they liked my older sister more. And it pissed me off. My sister had friends of her own, why would she want to hang out with kids 4-6 years younger than her? I never had kids my age live close enough to play, and it pissed me off that my sister took that away from me. If it was just me, they probably would've hung out with me. But if they had my sister as an option, they'd pick her. And it sucked. Yes, I didn't like playing outside as much as they did. But I probably would've liked it better if I didn't feel like a second choice. Now we're all grown up and living our own lives. I haven't talked to them since high school. I'm not mad at my sister or the girls. I just realized they didn't like me how I am, and I can't change that. I never wanted to change. I'm still not very sociable and I don't have friends, but that's just how I am and I'm ok with it. The main reason I'm glad those girls moved in is that it gave me people to sit with on the bus and at lunch. I would've been a very lonely child if I had to make friends on my own. If my mom was able to, and if I knew this was an option, I would've begged to be homeschooled.
My room is right under the roof, and when I lie in my bed I can directly see through a high window at the stars. Throughout my whole childhood, I always could see a red dot in the sky. It was always there at night, even when it was cloudy. I thought it was a satellite, and I imagined it being MY satellite. With an astronaut inside who looks at me and makes sure I'm okay. Whenever I was sad and crying, I looked up to him and told him about my problems, pretended that he could hear me. Years later I realized that the satellite was actually the reflection of the small red light on my radio, which is always on when it's plugged in.