I grew up thinking I was awesome (because of compliments from friends and family). Long lashes, nice brown, thick hair, nice ass and perky boobs, pretty face. But over the last few years, I started to realize more and more that nothing of this is true. My lashes are actually short and stumpy, my hair has the color of mud, my ass is flat and my boobs ARE perky, but my nipples look weird. And my face... oh gosh, my nose looks so awful from any angle than from the front, you can't even concentrate on my different sized eyes. I am completely devastated. Growing up thinking I was attractive, I didn't have time to learn to deal with not being.
I used to pick at my nipples and try to take them off in the shower...
i came home with my best friend drunk off wine for the first time and we let my little brothers friends use us however they wanted. we thought it was hysterical
What's it called where you never used your normal, relaxed, real voice to speak or communicate in any way as a kid? It's like a form of being a mute, I'd say... I began forcing myself to speak with my real voice later in highschool, it was tough. It made me feel naked in a sense. Vulnerable. Uncomfortable. I was the same with my emotions. I acted as silly as I spoke, when inside I was just as lonely, lost and emotional as anyone else. But they all thought I was a robot. Emotionless. A clown. I'm pretty real about who I am now. I'm an asshole and I'm broken and miserable. Sometimes I get pleasantly distracted of course, but in general, I'm very disappointed in existence.
'Why you always hiding?' Me: Its the ptsd, leave me alone!
As a kid I was so skinny that I could almost fit my waist into my two hands. Like, lay my hands on my waist, and the thumbs and finger tips would almost touch. I just randomly tried this with my thighs. Compared to my hands, my waist used to be as big as my thighs are now. That's kind of scary.
when i was like 7 or 8 at school we got suspicious about one of our friends actually being a girl, because he was smaller and much weaker than us in sports and fights with other kids, the suspicion slowly spreaded until we all thought each other might be girls, so we decided to do a circle and show our dicks for proof, the kid that we originally thought was a girl refused to participate, which was suspicious but we still accepted him as male
I used to think that a serial killer is a killer from a series. Like Dexter or the killers in criminal series. I could never quite understand why the news were featuring serial killers, but not other characters from TV series...
I'm just a human bean...What do you want from me?