mi socia no dice nada ni expresa sus sentimientos. es una poker face completa y eso me tiene maaaaal, NO LA LEOO
from now on.. I'll do my best to just shut up..
I work in a care home and most of my time I'm doing personal care (washing dressing ect) which I love and its an amazing job. A certain amount of professionalism needs to be in place for the residents becouse it Is end of life care, but I really love them all and I think I've gotten to attached to some. But I know they will pass away soon so it is really conflicting in me between being human and connecting to them or being professional and not being as involved. But the latter often leaves them depressed and disconnected. Should I just be connected and risk my own well being or what?
i went with a friend to deliver some weed and just realized im deep into some crazy weed shit, my poor backpack was fuckin full to the top with buds, we going to a small countryside town to deliver it to some long haired classic stoner looking dudes. today was funny as hell, tomorrow morning the same, deliver some drugs lmao
yesterday I was in zoom with 30 engineering students and experts while I was talking I was playing with a measuring tape so I accidentally hit my eye with that shit I want to disappear 4ever
I wish I could tell some coworkers how I really feel. Nothing mean or hateful towards them. Just "D, please stop taking the rubberbands off the bags. Without those bands, the whole stack of bags will fall off. Please, for the love of crap, keep them on there". And "N, please don't stand around playing on your phone all night at closing time when there's stuff to get done. Help clean the registers, take the trash out, sweep, straighten things up, refill our spray bottles and bags, something. There's always stuff to do, just pick something. On the off chance everything is done, find a manager and ask what they want help with. I guarantee there's something in this store that needs work. It's not fair that everyone else helps out and you're not. It's not fair that I'm cleaning all the registers, taking out the trash, and putting stuff back on the shelves while you play on your phone and talk for the last hour. If the new hires can contribute more than their fair share, I know you can". But I can't say these things to them because I'm not their manager. I also hate confrontation and people not liking me after I speak up. So I just quietly do my work and pray they figure it out themselves and change.
I don't want to be the best in everything...I'm sick of it...they don't understand!!! no one is perfect...lemme rest!!!!
I have ocd. it is stupidly obnoxious that people say they have ocd because they see "satisfying videos", look at "uncomfortable posts" or have a nice handwriting... thats not ocd they don't fucking know the struggles and anxiety we ocds have to go through
I have a job interview scheduled for Friday at Tom Thumb
I keep having flashbacks that happened a year ago. I was angry because these peopls attacked me and thinks all I did was all I have done wrong. In a random times of the day I just have a sudden flashbacks and it stops me from doing all the things I am doing. It's hard because I'm too hurt and too angry and I don't understand why I can't let go. I just want to revenge on them and make their lives miserable. But I can't. I tried going to the therapist but all she did was make me feel guilty that I was late for my appointment or something. Little things and it's not helping that I'm just dealing everything on my own. Idk anymore what to do. I want these people's lives miserable. I feel weak, I feel depressed and anxious. I am most of all angry of this world.