the first cubicle in the fourth floor washroom at my work has been my sanctuary. not because I can poop in there peacefully but it is so comfy and private. i can rest and be alone, away from everyone. mingling with people at work is just too tiring for me.
I need a promotion, I'm on the verge of being fired, so if you're up for pizza in the States, use the code BRADLEY3 for a $3 discount on your next card order through the app! But keep it quiet on where you read this!
At work, I have a crush on my supervisor (I'll just call him E). He's my age. Well his little brother started working there too, which is cool, he's a nice kid. Well my mom (who works there too) walks up to me and nudges me and says "Wow, look at Mini E. You should get some of that!" I'm disgusted. I know I'm only 22 and he's 18, but he's barely 18 and he is fresh out of high school. I can't believe my mom would say something like that. And she knows I have a crush on E! Why on earth would I hit on his brother?! I just can't stop thinking about it, I'm so upset she even suggested it.
Our hands brushed. Was it an accident? Or did he intentionally grab my hand instead of literally anywhere else on the box? It was just for a second, if even that long, but it was just enough time to make me blush, to send an electric shock straight to my heart. His hand was cold but comforting. Rough but tender. And at a time when I felt like I was drowning, him touching my hand was like him pulling me up from down below. I just wish it lasted longer.
((EXPLICIT)) I realized that I have a kink for being told what to do during sex. The idea of a roleplay with my partner being in charge, him telling me to call him "sir" and having complete control over me, is so fucking hot. Imagining him saying things like "You like knowing you're getting fucked by your boss?" or "Be a good girl and come for me..." gets me so wet. Even the thought of him leaving part of his uniform on is so sexy! ...I just wish I had a partner to do it with.
I really think my crush is showing me signs he likes me, but my anxiety and social awkwardness make me wonder if I'm misinterpreting, or if my confirmation bias is just making me believe that the things he's doing mean something. Maybe he's just being nice and I just don't understand human social interaction enough to know the difference. Or maybe he really does like me but all this self doubt will hold me back from him and I'll miss my chance. I wish I didn't have anxiety. I hate always being afraid or doubtful.
I'm afraid to lose my job because I'm sick too often. Theoretically they can't fire you because of that and my bosses aren't assholes, but the problem is that I practically can't do my job properly if I'm not there for a certain amount of days, at least in their opinion. Which is a reason for firing me that I can't argue with.
I don't feel like going to work anymore.. I need a different job.
Evan, I know you'll never see this because I strongly doubt you use this stupid app. But since I'm too scared to say anything to your face... I have to tell you somehow. That girl you work with? She likes you. A lot. She brings you food all the time because she knows it'll make you smile. She said she liked the color of your hoodie, but the truth is, she meant she likes that color on you. She always remembers every little thing you say you like- Dr. Pepper is your favorite drink. Sweetarts are your favorite candy. Velociraptors are your favorite dinosaur- or at least your favorite real one. Your favorite is actually the Indominus Rex. You always sneak up on her and catch her singing Taylor Swift songs; did you know that, in her eyes, most of them are about you? She gets so excited to come to work every day just because she gets to see you there. All she wants is to hold your hand when she walks beside you, to give you a hug when she says goodbye. All she wants is to love you. And she thinks you might actually like her back. Do you?
my job gave me a supervizer postion and im acctuly more trouble then I am helpful. I count my drawers wrong or take forever doing it, i keep my employees longer then i need to after close cause they cant leave till I'm done and its always my fault we get out so late. Our store was almost completly dead and we should have been done by at least 10:20 but we didnt leave til 10:40 cause i always mess up on my money. im ready for them to say "f♡ck it, you are no good." and put me back to a basic employee. I fel like i did everything right befor i got promoted..