Is this a coffin? Am I digging my own grave? I am aware now. Do I still have a chance to leave?
I mean them as compliment, but why you get shy, or are you a bit offended ?
I started a new job about 2 and half months ago. It's a very physically demanding job. 9-10 hour shifts where you sit down for an hour lunch break and thats it. It's so hot that you're forced to drink so much water. And personally, its forced me to eat better. I cant eat hot things when ove been so hot all day. So I make veggie filled pasta salad. and Fruit and veggie filled chicken salad. And I've dropped some weight. which i am so excited about! I didnt take the job because if those reasons. I took it because it was what was offered and I need a job. But I'm starting to think it's the best thing that could have ever happened. Now that I've gotten settled at the job and I'm not quite as exhausted when I get home, I think I'm gonna take up bike riding again. Years ago I used to go five miles every single day. I wanna get back into that again. And I think im gonna start forcing myself to eat more veggies in more ways. I don't like them cooked. But I wanna drop the weight even more. I want to get to a healthier weight. I want to learn to cook more healthy food. I love oven baked chicken with a little pepper and lemon. Now if could just add veggies to that instead of only noodles or rice. I just dont know where to get started. And I find it a little overwhelming. But it's something I need to do and know I need to do.
My work only gave me one rest day when the doctor says I need 3. Wow.
I'm pretty sure he likes me, and if he does, I wish he'd just ask me out already. To hell with the rules. I don't care that he's my boss. I can keep a secret. I can act. I'll give him the time of his life at home and be the best girlfriend he ever had; and at work, he'll be nothing more than a supervisor I'm cordial with. No one has to know. But I need him. I'm so in love with him. He makes me so happy. I just wish he'd give me a chance.
I got a Top Performer sign on my desk at work. I worked my butt off, did really well in getting production, and I earned it. I was really proud of myself when I got it. The guy sitting next to me kept taking my sign. I politely smiled and fake laughed the first time because I knew he was joking. But he kept doing it and I stopped smiling or laughing. The last time, I had enough. I was on the phone with a customer, he took my sign, put it on the ground, and stepped on it. I muted my phone and said "I am not in the mood. PUT IT BACK". He put it back and hasn't bothered it since. I want to just do my work and have that guy ignore me and my stuff entirely. I could move desks. But if I move, I give up my regular seat I've had for over a month. Desks are first come first serve, unless the manager reserved a desk for someone for medical reasons. I've gotten lucky with no one taking my seat for this long. I don't want to risk losing my regular spot and having to move every day.
I slept with my boss. We are now friends outside of work and have been to each other's houses. We still sleep together.
I am so glad my department listened to me. I have had issues with a co-worker for a long time. I feel like a lot of stress has been lifted.
People who leave a mess in the bathroom at work for no reason get on my nerves. I know you know you left your used paper towels in the sink. And why? Why? There are two trash cans behind you and another one next to the door. I don't know how it wouldn't take a conscious decision to leave the paper towels in the sink instead of tossing them in the trash on your way out. Same thing for people leaving food wrappers and other trash on the counters and tables instead of using one of three trash cans in the room. There's at least one trash can on each side of the room. People are just lazy.
I've been re-reading my confessions and I will say I've gotten more mature about pornography but I honestly feel like I was a better person back then. I didn't automatically assume the worst in people but growing up makes you realize you can't trust someone by the face they show you.