So I started a new job. This job is very labor heavy and I sweat. A lot. So my um crotch area is rubbed fucking raw from my sweat and underwear. it's usually not bad. just a small spot. A good shower and some A&D cream clear it up almost completely by morning. But that's on days when I fuckig remember to use baby powder! This moring I forgot to use it. and dear God does am I paying for it. I hope if I keep it bathed in A&D tonight it will help by morning
Someone sat at my desk yesterday and took down all my papers from the sides of my cubicle. Not personal stuff, but work related stuff that has to be there. We use that stuff every day and it's impossible to memorize all of it, so it stays there. All of those papers are at every single desk in pretty much the same spot. Whoever sat there yesterday put all those important papers mixed in with a pile of my stuff and some stuff from people don't work here anymore. I didn't have time to sort it out before I clocked in, but I'm putting all of it back when I go on lunch.
While I was emotional and worried about losing my job, and thinking about leaving voluntarily, I applied for a different job. I didn't think I would get a response back the same day. But I did and now I have to schedule a phone interview. I'm nervous. I'm scared about the phone interview and the in person interview. I don't have nice enough clothes for an interview, which I didn't really think about until I got the response back about a phone interview. I also must not have been thinking clearly about the gas money needed to drive there if I get the interview and later get the job. It's an hour's drive away. I've had an hour's commute before, but my bills at that point were lower. An hour to work one way is double my commute time now, which means double the gas in my car is needed. I still want to leave my current job eventually and work for the company I applied for, but I have to get things in order first before I can make a huge change like that. I need a nice outfit for interviews. I need plenty of gas money saved. I need to mentally prepare for interviews. I'll just have to tough it out at my current job until then.
One of my favorite team leads is leaving next week. I'm bummed. She was my team leader for about a year. And for the last 6 months or so, she's still been my favorite team leader even if I'm not on her team anymore. I was already thinking about getting a job somewhere else. With her, and some other good people, leaving, I don't have much of a reason to stay.
I'm a scientist, a lawyer, an engineer, a doctor, and I'm also a motherf****r xD
I don't want to, but I think I need to start looking for another job. My production numbers and metrics are just not getting where they need to be. I keep trying to do what I need to and it's not working. I'm tired of trying. I'm sick of it seeming so easy for other people and it never is for me. I'm sick of crying before work. It feels hopeless and the stress is breaking me. I have to work my ass off and get lucky to barely meet my goal. I'm tired of it.
There is a lot of, silence, peace and almost little to no issues in my life. My major issue is debt, and having little money to go on a big travel. My life isn't so bad. I'm actually doing, okay.
I had to take monday and tuesday off of work, to get my motor kegs fixed. When I took my car into the shop, I was told the part wouldn't be in, until tuesday. I hated missing work, but I can't say, that I didn't need the rest. I actually feel energized. Mishaps are good, sometimes.
I am feeling the urge to write again.
it has been almost 6 months since i actually felt nice and confident; this is mostly my fault because i haven't been productive at all and my training is way behind