I fucked up. I'm a trainee, and sometimes we have school days where we don't have to go to work, but just go to school for a day (which starts much later than work). I thought today was a school day because it says so in our calendar, but on our last day there we were told that it had been rescheduled - the thing just is that I forgot about that. I just realized when I was sitting in the empty classroom for a while. Now I seriously have no idea what to do. I can either go to work, which would not only be quite embarrassing, but also means that all my overtime hours get cancelled, but I NEED those hours. Or I could go home and hope that nobody will ever find out; which is likely to happen because I don't see how they would, unless my teacher suddenly gets the idea of calling work to ask whether I'm there, which never happened before. But of course, if they did find out, I'd get fired.
I thought today was going to be a good day. Finally showered after too long for me to admit. My hair looked nice. Put lotion and perfume on. Ate breakfast. Anxiety before work was minimal. Except for working out or doing yoga, I did all the things that make me happy and relaxed. Get to work, take one long annoying phone call, then go to a meeting where I'm fired. My sales metrics were way below goal for too long. I didn't even realize it was that bad until now. But it's a call center with different projects and they suggested coming to HR in a few days to apply for another project. There's one for FedEx that's not sales heavy at all. I've heard you just help people with their orders, the only metric is handle time. Their next class starts in about two weeks. I'm hoping I can get into that one. If not, hopefully another call center will take me. I'm 25 and that's the first time I've ever been fired. I've had 5 jobs, including that one, and I've always given notice before quitting. I'm hoping I can get something that's strictly customer service, no sales. I just need something fast, bills are coming up. If you're a praying kind of person, pray for me please.
Have you ever felt like empty eventhough you've gotten what you want? Sometimes, I cry when I'm alone (and I dont know what the reason). I dont even know why this happens.
I always know that in life we always have so much we still need to learn especially while still young and growing. But when I'm actually in the situation where I started stepping towards my goals, that's when I realized how much how I still don't know and still need to learn. Knowing something is just stuck in our minds but realizing something it's something we embody.
Last week I was feeling really crappy and anxious at work. I wasn't pitching the things I need to as part of my sales metrics because I didn't want to be a bother to customers who probably hear the same scripts every time they call in. My metrics suffered, which made my anxiety and depression worse. Unless some easy sales fell in my lap, I wasn't getting anything. But my coach told me every member deserves to hear the benefits of whatever I can offer. That really helped me today. I pitched everything on nearly every call and no one's been rude about it. If I remember it's not just trying to meet my goals, it's trying to help other people benefit, that helps me want to offer it more.
3 hours and 23 minutes until my day off starts. I'm having to count down the time until my break to get through it. Not even an hour and a half until my break. And after my break, the calls will pretty much be dead and I can relax for most of the last 2 hours. Personally I'm hoping the calls will slow down after I come back from lunch. I'm exhausted.
I still hate my “new” work.. 1 month now :/
Sometimes it's better to go home, if you cannot focus at work. Chances are you are exhausted, without feeling sleepy. Rest is more important than money.
I used to love my job, but every day I spend here makes me want to leave a little more. I'm just so tired of the people I work with acting like children 24/7, and I'm tired of getting my hours cut. I'm just tired.
I wasn't feeling well at work today so I went to the doctor. He wrote me a sick note for the whole week. As soon as I was home, I felt a lot better again - maybe it will get worse again, but I feel like I should have srayed, and I definitely don't feel like having to stay home for a whole week. But my company doesn't let us come back sooner than what the doctor prescribed (it's company policy and there's no way around it). I feel bad now, kind of like a liar, even though I really did feel sick at first.