For the longest time, we flirted back and forth, and it really seemed like he was interested in me. Then I heard he started dating someone else. He stopped flirting. Recently (a few months later) it feels like he's flirting with me a bit again. He's not at all the kind of person to cheat, so I can't help but wonder if maybe they broke up and he's interested again. But I can't ask him. I don't necessarily hope they broke up, because I know his girlfriend and they make a good couple. But part of me hopes I have a chance with him. I've loved him for so long, patiently waiting for him to make a move because I didn't want to push him. And that's what I'll keep doing until I'm sure.
I feel like crap, mentally and physically. My anxiety is getting to me, I feel nauseous, my stomach hurts, I came to work feeling like I could cry. But I can't afford to leave early.
They're cutting our hours so bad at work. I'm making so much less money, and I'm scrambling to make ends meet. I don't have transportation to get to another job. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm so scared. I need to stay at this stupid job because I need the insurance.
My dad asked me to help him get a job in my company. His company is about to fire him due to budget cuts, and at his age it isn't easy to find any jobs. A while ago I offered to help my mom to get a job at my company, because she wanted to leave her old job (she ended up keeping the old job though), so he figured I'd do the same for him. The thing is... I don't want to. I know my dad. His work ethic isn't the best. He isn't good with people and often known as the rude incel guy. He makes a lot of mistakes and blames others for it. All those reasons are why he will get fired from his current job. If he ends up working here, then this will be bad for my own career. Firstly, people will find out he's my dad and especially new clients or people who don't know me well will have certain prejudices about me after meeting him. My bosses also probably will mistrust my judgment if I tell them what a good guy he is when this turns out to be wrong. Even if I don't tell anyone and just help him with the application, I'll probably live in constant anxiety of people finding out or shame if someone complains about him. I just don't want to help him. But I can't tell him this without starting a huge fight.
I have a new job since last week and i hate it already.. 😕
I've already come on here a few times complaining about how much I hate my job and my manager because it's driving me insane. I've thought about quitting so many times, but I don't have a backup if I do and finding a job is so fucking hard. Nevertheless, I'm thinking about finally just doing it. Fuck if I'll be broke after, I rather be broke than putting up with all that bullshit. I've put off leaving long enough, and it's just getting more and more unbearable as time goes on.
I get through my day just counting down the time until my next break/lunch. I felt like crap today but not crappy enough to call out or go home so I kept telling myself "just make it to break/lunch then take it from there". Only 1 hour 50 minutes until I'm off work and I can't wait.
I hate today. I know that my depression is hitting because I'm about to start my period and my hormones are all over the place. But that still doesn't help that I'm depressed and if it was entirely up to me, losing 8 hours of my paycheck wouldn't matter, and I wouldn't have to make up another stomach ache excuse for my boss, I'd call out and stay home.
Tomorrow ill have my first day at my new job.. im nervous as fuck
I draw a lot of people and it’s no problem but I notice when it comes to my stepbrother and stepsister it is a problem because I never ever know what color to use for there eyes. I guess the closest color is “blue” but its not like any blue you’re thinking of. It’s like dark dark dark blue. Like imagine blue and black and mixed up together. Every person with blue eyes that i’ve seen before has eyes that are light blue like the sky during the day but for some reason my stepbrother and stepsister have eyes that are blue like the sky during the night. Every person thinks at first that the two of them have brown eyes but you have to look close to see that it’s actually blue. i am actually jealous because my eyes are so boring in comparison.