My boss said he could teach me 'intimacy' thats weird rite?
I knew my crush supposedly had a secret girlfriend- but since I heard this from someone else, not him, I've been skeptical about the validity of the statement. But I had an idea of who it was and why it would be best to keep it on the down low. And today, I saw them together outside of work, and she was riding in his car. She lives pretty far away from our side of town, so she had no reason to be riding with him... unless she was going home with him. I mean it's possible that she had car trouble and he was giving her a ride despite the distance because he's just a very kind person, and he's given rides to several people who lived way out of his way. But they've been friends for a while now, and they have really good chemistry despite her being a wild rebel and him being a reserved goody two shoes. Don't get me wrong, I think she's great and I even consider her my friend. One of the few people at work that I'd hang out with outside of work. But seeing them together made me feel sick to my stomach. Knowing that the whole time I thought he might be flirting with me, he was probably actually waiting for her to get promoted so that she didn't work in his area anymore. Knowing that the whole time I was trying to get him to realize how important he is to me, he was probably trying to get her to realize how important she is to him. I'm happy for them, I really am. I just... feel so shattered. So stupid. I can't believe I thought someone like him would actually like someone like me, especially when my competition is a smart, funny girl who is also literally a model. Even I think she's hot. I just wanted to vent my feelings here because even though I wish them the best, I can't help but hurt inside, and I don't know who to talk to about this.
I hate my job so much that I don't know how to stand it. I've already tried multiple different occupations and every one was worse than the other one. I know, I know. I should keep trying new things until I find something that's right for me. But the reality is that you can't keep quitting job traineeships, I already had a hard enough time getting accepted in my current one because it's hard to convince an employer that you will stay with him If you've quit so many before. There's also the social pressure that's crippling me and is making me feel even more like an absolute failure. The worst thing is that I know what I want, but there doesn't seem to be a profession that meets all my priority expectations, so there's always that one thing that absolutely sucks and makes my life hell but the alternative isn't better, it's just a different hell. I'm difficult, I know that, but what can I do? I don't know. I'll just stay in this one and see how long I can make it before I shut down.
I have this co-worker whom I always caught staring at me. I approached him once and asked him, "Hey, dude! Any challenges or problems you wanna share?" but he just shook his head. One time during our lunch break, while I'm eating my meal with my 'closer' friends... He'd normally eat with his friends, but then he cam asking if he can join us. Well, we are workmates, so we said 'yes'. He stares at me blankly and confused. He seems to have a question on his face like 'Hey, can I sit beside you?'. So, I moved a little. Guess what?? He sat next to me happily. (weird, isn't it?) My daily routine after eating my meal is going to the Mini Stop store and buy myself a soda, and then go directly in-front of Robinsons Supermarket (it's 2am.. they are closed, and it's a little dark in there) to enjoy my soda while playing mobile games or browsing facebook. I got startled when someone groans "yo" out of nowhere. He stand right befor me and asked "Can I?" Then I realized that it's him again... no other than but Marc. I answered "sure! no problem." Then he sat right next to me. I heard him say "Hey.." after some minutes of silence. "Yes? Anything that bothers you?" I responded. He said this in a total mess, without a pause like an EK gun being fired, and then walk away like a boss... "You know what, I have this weird feeling for you since that day you helped me out with that call. I don't know but my life just become happier when you're around. I feel no worries everytime you're near or whenever I see you smile, even if you're not smiling at me. I know that this is really weird, and I don't really know why or how. I also know that you'll find this weird or a sort like a shit, but I am saying it anyway. I don't expect you to say anything or respond to me with whatever, I just wanna let you know what I feel because I am bothered too. I am so much bothered that I like you but you just seem to ignore me." I was like 'what the hell did he say?' Seriously?
I don't want to drive to work. I want to work from home.
at work super bored, guess ill start pacing back and forth
For the first time in my life I could not celebrate Christmas bc I had to work and when I told friends and family they all felt sad for me but I actually could not have been happier for I don't care about Christmas and hey, working on a holiday means double payment and I could really use the money sooo...
So, here's what happened... I working at a Business Process Outsourcing company (call center), and I don't really understand why my boss just gave me away. There's this new client, which we were told to be a bigger client than my client or boss, and they need agents to handle this new client. Sad to say, I am one of those who were assigned to be a part of this new client. I really hate the fact that my boss just gave me away to that new client. My boss told me that the new client is a very important client, so it needs to be handled by 'top performing agents'. "Top performing" what? Seriously??? I know I am doing my best, but surely I am not on-top. And if so, how come that they just gave me away like a shit? And now I am struggling with this new client. I really wanted to say this in-front of them... tgat I wanna quit, but I can't. I need this job, but I'm hopeless. What should I do? #AECOM #Marriott
This lady that sits near me at work was irritating me last night. She got a customer who's Asian and kept interrupting her. When she got off the call she kept bitching about "the oriental woman" she couldn't understand. It annoys me when customers bitch about another agent who had an accent. But it straight pisses me off when it's a coworker saying that about a customer. I get if you're having a bad day or you're just a bitch in general, but don't be racist. If I get a customer I can't understand, I blame it on the phone not coming in clearly when I ask them to repeat something. And if a customer really pissed me off I try to wait until I'm in my car on break to let it out. Or just angrily scribble on a notepad. I didn't say anything to that lady because I didn't want to start anything and I didn't know if it was bad enough to take it to a coach. I just hope she gets moved away from me soon or gets fired. She was also talking to a new person about why this job sucks so maybe she'll quit.
When finals came, I literally felt free. But then I realized I still have work, research to do and papers to submit for publications. Welp..... I guess it really never ends here. I'm just so tired. I want a break. but then like I wonder, if I was on a vacation all the time, how long will it actually take for me to say that I need to go back to college, study again, and pursue more of my career?