I have kidney and bladder infection, I have a fever and bronchitis ( not related to my infection), plus I'm on my period. This is the harshest experience of my life I feel like dying!!! The adominal pain, hot flashes, head ache, dizziness, and irritability from the period. The back pain and peeing pain from the infection. And worst of all, the lung issue from bronchitis and sore throat plus the itchy nose and watery right eye that I ended up partially blind plus a different area of head ache. And imagine you have to walk a looot from classes to classes in a huge university and I cannot skip classes or else I'll get droppped.... Plus the stresses from week school work (I have 6 classes) and then my shift in work too that I cannot be absent from. I literally yelled at my irritating friend for her usual attitude (doesn't give a fuck about others but herself and her stories.. Keep asking whether I'm listening or not). Like fuck OFF I'm feeling like shit and i have no time for now to your shit.. I felt bad right that I said that to her because she never knew she had that personality... But right really I want to sleep but nooo I have to finish my homework!!!! Man I've never been a dead man walking for the entire week. How am I still alive??
I hate when I email someone and they try to call me. If I wanted to talk on the phone, I would have called. There are a few instances where this is okay, like if I'm emailing someone and we're shooting too many emails back and forth, a phone call would be quicker. But I work third shift. If I send an email to a business, it's because I know I'm not going to be able to talk to them on the phone during their hours of operation. But sometimes, for some reason, when I send a simple email, they try to call me. Which would be fine, I guess, if I wasn't asleep. That phone call either wakes me up, or I have to stay awake hours past my bedtime to call them back during their hours of operation. Not to mention I suffer from anxiety, and unexpected phone calls make me panic. If I know someone is going to call at a certain time, it's not as bad, but when I send an email and then I get a phone call the next day from an unknown number in response to that, it makes me sick to my stomach with anxiety, or wakes me up with my heart pounding in terror, which keeps me from going back to sleep. It's just annoying. How hard is it to just email me back?
I hate college! I hate how expensive it is and I hate how I'm both poor and in depressive state. My mom helps me with my tuition and she herself is already broke .More broke than me. I couldn't afford the tuition. I have no scholarships and lost some of them because I have a low GPA and it was hard. Just hard. I failed a class already twice and now my financial aid won't accept them so I have to pay additional sum on my own pocket. But beacuse the I have to meet the full student credit thing I have to add more and more classes leaving me with seven classes and it's just hard for me because I'm very depressed and I couldn't handle that much stress. Honestly, I wanted a gap semester. I wanted to rest. I wanted to go away. I wanted to stop everything. I want everything to stop already. I want to just kill myself already. The time is going too fast and I'm drag too hard by its current. I'm literally doing everything on my own and I'm tired. lately I have insomnia and I have a destroyed sleeping schedule. I tried fixing it for days and I still feel very ehxuasted. My mind is deteriorated. I couldn't think and the pain is like an imploding pain. Going to my classes, I have to take that class of else I won't be able to take 5 different more in the future probably leaving me to finish for 10 years or so. Leaving me to more debt, leaving me to more stress and depression. I have a choice but I feel stuck in this situation (tiredness and depression) making feel that I have no choice. I really want the time to stop for me. I also want to stay away from my family and go somewhere. This feeling right now I don't understand. I feel like I'm crying yet punching a wall. I'm mad, stressed and depressed at the same time. WHy does many things have to happen at the same time. If could just stop the time and actually do something... But everything is beyond my control and I can't do anything about it. Life is not fair at all. And I hate that it is.. I hate that I can't find solutions to my problems or that one problems chains with another. It never stops. One situation has one issue, have linking problems then it finishes. Then time starts with another phase and this phase also have a consisted problem. I get not sleep and I'm too tired. My mother's coleague asked me, how I do it, how do I manage everything with disability, depression and being poor? If I could just say, no I can't handle them no my mom couldn't handle them. We can't handle them. ANd yes I want to die fast. Not slowly. I want to die fast just like the time does.
The managers never had a clear plan on how they want the management is. We always have overtime and the company won't let people resign. These people won't even let me have a short vacation. Absents are not allowed I know but when you actually have plans on your rest day and they suddenly want to change it or seems like it doesn't fit their schedule, they will just change it the last minute and you cannot say no. Even if I quit, they won't allow it. If we won't show up anymore, our salary that we worked for won't be given to us and company won't recognize that you worked for them even if it's in years. Stuck and don't know what to do.
I work in a supermarket since 2 weeks ago, only 3 days per week, to save some money for later. The first days I struggled with the cashier's part of the job, and thought about quitting, but then it got a bit better (only few customers) so I decided to stay. Until today. You can feel that Christmas is coming, more people are here, and then there was one really rude customer. And I don't talk about not saying hello or snapping at me or something, he was so rude, I didn't even know that it was humanly possible to be like that. I almost cried right there in front of everyone, but managed to hold back the tears. Until they told me to stay 2 hours longer. When I said that my shift ends earlier, they just said "No, look at the plan we changed it, next time look at it earlier". Like... noone told me that there IS a plan, let alone that I am supposed to look at it. I also made a lot of mistakes today and don't know if I can be sued for that or anything. I'm currently on break, and sit in the locker room trying not to cry (with mediocre success). I "only" have to do 4 more shifts, then my contract ends anyway, but that's too much for me. I'll definitely quit, even though I know how weak I am for doing it, but I don't care. But the thing is, even if I quit, I will have to work one more shift. And I'm really afraid that this will be hell, because then not only the job will suck, but the other employees will hate me.
Is it possible to have really bad social anxiety and work in customer service or as a server? I get bad panic attacks sometimes and I can't breathe half of the time....it becomes so overwhelming especially with people being so demanding
I'm 23 years old, turning 24 next month, and I just spent at least 5 minutes entertaining myself with making fart noises against my hand and arm. I'd keep doing that, but I'm in my car at work. I gotta come back from lunch soon.
I hate my current job so much. I'll only have to do it until Dec 30, so there's no point in quitting. But I hate it so much. I am already completely devastated and full of fear and nervous and basically all bad feelings one can have. I always try to tell myself "only 6 hours, and this only 6 more times", but for me it's simply not "only". It's a lot. I hate this.
anyone ever jumped a train barrier in the uk before? lost my train ticket and i dont have the receipt and i dont know what to do
right now I'm really tired. tired of working with racist and homophobe colleagues, tired of losing friends, tired of being with my boyfriend, tired of life. I'm just so sick of it and I feel like I could cry the whole time. I'm just so stressed out with everything and I can't seem to have a break. I'm losing myself again.