Look. I'm capable of waking up to an alarm most of the time. But when someone tells me they're gonna wake me up at a certain time, I don't bother setting an alarm. Now, if you tell me you're gonna wake me up at 7:30, your ass better not be back here at fucking 8:00 because you "lost track of time". If you don't want to watch the fucking clock, don't make a promise to wake someone up at a certain time. Now I don't have time to shower before work- again.
I'm soo tired I wanna sleep but I can't. I dont even know why I chose this profession. It's very work intensive and requires a lot of deadlines not to mention to many projects at the same time. I've been sick lately and even infected my boss manager (I just sneezed and because of my runny nose). I wanted this challenge but I'm not that zombie enough to sacrifice rest. My only legit break is our one hour lunch. I feel grateful for the mental challenge and self-training though. Still the body cannot keep up. How to increase human energy?
In the midst of doing tasks, suddenly i want to cry. I just feel so tired and sad
My boss reduced me to tears this morning over a small mistake. It wasn't a big deal at all. But he kept screaming at me right in my face in front of everyone and I just can't handle that. He's so intimidating. And when I broke down crying he told me to "man up." Man up? I'm fourteen.
At work, everyone keeps their stack of training books and scripts on their desks. It's our main knowledge resource for everything. We don't have assigned seats and you're not supposed to take the books off the floor so we have to keep the books on the desk we last sat at, then take the books with us if we move. Someone took my books and I can't find them. I'm pissed. My books had all my notes, I flagged the important pages. I want my stuff back. I'm borrowing books from work, but I want my own. When I find my stuff, I'm asking my coach if I can put my stuff in his cabinet. I'm not having someone steal from me again.
There's this guy I work with. He's really cool and I hope we can become good friends. But I also have a weird crush on him. I say weird because I have no interest in dating him; I just want to have sex with him. And it's not even necessarily that I have no interest in dating him, I just know we wouldn't work out together. But that doesn't stop me from wanting to do terrible, dirty things with him. Unfortunately I don't believe in friends with benefits, and even if I did, he's got a girlfriend, so I'd never do anything with him. I really just want to be his friend more than anything tbh.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life because I think I'm literally not good at anything. At least not good enough to get a job. I am good at drawing and writing, but I'm not creative - I can just copy other people's work, therefore a creative job isn't for me. I suck at maths and logical thinking, so anything related to that is no option either. I also can't do a physically hard job due to some health problems, so that crosses out most jobs, too. I am not smart enough to study at university (I know because I've tried) and due to my mental problems, I can't even do something like cashier or waiter (I've also tried that). No matter which job I'm looking into, there's always a deal breaker. So far, the only thing that seems possible is a cleaner, but hell, I don't want to spend my life in poverty.
I didnt get accepted to my job application and this is the first time i felt happy not getting accepted. Because from the interview i just know how much this job is gonna cause me stress and increase ny depression plus i have heavy college courses and they want ne to prioritize them not the class. Plus the job sucks too. Its hard to find a job but its harder to find a good job.
This guy who I'm starting to become friends with came in to work today after having 5 or 6 beers at the bar with his friends. He was a lot more upbeat than usual. Makes me want to spend more time with him outside of work.
Please tell good reasons not to go to med school. E.g. tell me bad things about med school or hpw it's not good for some individual. (Background: very very very into sciences, but I have depression and loves freedom to travel.) I want objective criticisms though. Just help please. Id be glad for a criticism