I don't know what to do and I could really use some advice. I dropped out of college because I want to do a vocational training (or apprenticeship or job training, don't know how it's called). However, I was quite late with dropping out and couldn't get the job I actually wanted, so I applied to another job just in case. I got that second one. It's a different field than what I actually thought I'd like to do, but I could also imagine doing that - however, I'm quite afraid that, if I do this, I'll later have to drop out again because I realize it's not actually what I want. Dropping out 2 times in my life wouldn't look good in my CV. Now I don't know if I should take the job and look where it takes me, risking fucking my life up. Or if I should turn that down and try to get the job I actually wanted, also risking fucking my life up if it doesn't work. Any advice on that? I'm so stuck.
I need to practice my pitching scripts for work but I don't have anyone to practice with. My boyfriend doesn't want to do it and I'm too embarrassed to let him hear me talking to myself when I practice. But I have to get better at this somehow so I'll be more confident on the phone with real customers.
I've been extremely depressed lately, due to ongoing health issues. I've had to quit my job (health issue limits my lifting capability, the job I had to leave had me lifting an 80 lb machine multiple times a day). A friend of mine knows how stressed I've been (No money, in a lot of pain, generally feeling like a piece of shit) and offered to come over and help me relax by offering to smoke some weed. However, I'm about to start looking for a job next week and I'm concerned about it showing up on a drug test. I don't know shit about weed other than it stays in your system for awhile. I really want to try it, to relax if only for awhile, but I don't want to screw up a chance at a job.
Normally, I get 1 or 2 rude customers a week. Just yesterday, I had like 4 or 5. Just people being rude as hell and blaming me for things out of my control. I hope people are nicer today. If I get that many rude people again, I'm going to have a nervous breakdown. I don't want to go in today, but I have to.
A lot of my clients ask me how I found out my career was my passion. Thinking back to grade school I saw it as a hobby. Meaning I didn't mind getting paid for it or not because I love doing it. Of course that is if $ didn't exist.
Managers intimidating employees, doesn't make you a leader, it makes you a company liability.
Sometimes I hate working night shift. All I want right now is to go outside and take my dog for a walk so we can enjoy the sun. But if I don't go back to sleep right now, I'm not going to have enough energy to work tonight. I don't know how other people do this :(
I try to be as mentally sound as possible. I know that I am slightly off, but know how to be silent, help people, and have nice and light conversations, when I can, with people I know and strangers (not speaking too much but with indepth opinions and some humorous interactions). Yet, it seems that when it comes to the workplace or even when I was in college, I would have one or more people that would be crass or negative towards me. They would make negative remarks, and choose not to like me, even if I haven't done anything to them. (If there was a reason for someone to be against me, I would completely understand, and own up to it.) I am working at a place now, three supervisors involved; there is one supervisor that acts that way towards me and other people, because that is her personality. There is another woman at my workplace that is indirectly negative and another that makes subtle insulting remarks. They come after me differently and negatively, because they think I am an easy target. I could easily go to HR, yet I always have taken the high road. Sometimes I want to curse them out and ENJOY the consequences, because that is how much I don't give a fuck. So, I'll wait for that day. I don't give a shit if I get fired, I don't get paid enough, for people to act like that towards me. (That "stooping to their level", pep talk won't work with me. I've witnessed uppermanagement not do anything but a slap on the wrist and then that person goes to person he/she had been treating wrong a lot worse. I'll let the person have it. H.R. can take a break.)
I applied for a job and have an interview today. I just read my application again, just as a preparation, and noticed something that makes me really nervous: I've studied at university the last 2 years, but I'm not finishing it and am not going to get a degree (which is why I'm applying for that job, which is in a totally different field). But in my application, I somehow not only missed to mention that, I also made it look like I already have that degree. I have no idea why I phrased things like I did when I wrote this. To be honest, I was surprised to even get an interview although not finishing uni, and now I think the only reason they invited me was because they thought I have a degree. Now my chances are probably around zero, because they'll either think I lied on purpose, or I'll be so nervous about the explaining (I hate awkward moments) that I will screw the whole interview up. I am so afraid, I can't breathe.
Today is officially the day where I say I hate my job. I have been here for 3 years. I have a co-worker that's been here for 2. We have the same position except I'm full time and she isn't. If I even so much as show up exactly on time instead of early I get in trouble. She constantly breaks rules and nobody cares. The level of favoritism in this place drives me insane. Just because she's 54 and I'm 22 they give her more credit even though she doesn't work 99% of the time when she's here. She also just got interviewed for a manager position. she doesn't even know how to use a cash register correctly. I get treated like I'm lazy and worthless all the time just because I'm the only one that's young and everyone else isn't.