I hate when I'm trying to explain to a customer why I can't do what they want me to do and they say "I don't care! This is what's going to happen" and just start ranting at me. No, what you want to happen is not going to happen and I'm trying to tell you exactly why. I could tell you "that's just the way it is", but that's more likely to cause an argument. I'm sorry you don't like this policy, but it's standard. Ranting at me is not going to change anything. This policy should've been told to you when you did the transaction and it's the exact same policy every time. Accept what I've told you and move on, or don't. But regardless of which way you handle this, the policy is not going to change. I don't like to sound that cold, but if someone is rude and screaming at me I have to be firm or they'll walk all over me. Yell at me all you want, but the more you yell at me, the less likely I am to go an extra mile for you.
I don't draw much provocative stuff unless I'm asked to, but whenever I do draw it (either for myself or others), I enjoy it. I really like drawing suggestive things- not straight porn, really- and wish I had more reasons to draw it. It's kinda just... fun.
I wanted to express myself in a weirdest, scariest, and erotic possible way. I paint it but my emotions were so intense that I punched the canvas. I feel like im on drugs but I'm not just the binaural beat working oddly to me and the after effects is weird and that it's still there and it's 10 minutes since after I listened straight for 3 hours. The beat WORKED well.
My dad is always putting me and my family down when we try to do something. i mean anything that we try to learn or get into like a sport, activity or profession, he is there to ridicule and make us feel bad. i don't know why he is so toxic and evil, there is no reason for him to do this. and since i was raised like this, i never noticed, until i got older and made friends, and realized how their fathers treat them with encouragement, respect and support. that's why they are good athletes, that's why they have friends and are starting successful carreers as young adults. it blew my mind. that's why for about 6 months now i pretended that he died, i only say ''good day'' and ''good night'' for him, and i answer him with ''yes'' or ''no''. i stay away from any form of conversation and most importantly, i am keeping my hobbies, my sport and my dreams a complete secret from him, and unfortunately i have to do the same with my mother because naturally she would tell him about it, and he would be there to ridicule me. all my life he was always there to plant insecurity, self doubt and fear on my mind. it hurts so much that i didn't realize what he was doing sooner. i allowed him to ruin my life by listening to his shit opinions. i was 20 when i realized what he was doing, i could have been a athlete or a artist or so much more, all i had to do was pretend that he died. i'm 22 now and now that i'm free from his toxicity i am discovering new passions, new hobbies and activities and friends, i feel like i might even meet a girl and fall in love. i am so happy that i broke free, but it still saddens me how many years i lost because of him. no more. he can't reach me no more, he can't do anything to me now. he is dead in my mind and will be forever.
Look. I'm capable of waking up to an alarm most of the time. But when someone tells me they're gonna wake me up at a certain time, I don't bother setting an alarm. Now, if you tell me you're gonna wake me up at 7:30, your ass better not be back here at fucking 8:00 because you "lost track of time". If you don't want to watch the fucking clock, don't make a promise to wake someone up at a certain time. Now I don't have time to shower before work- again.
I'm soo tired I wanna sleep but I can't. I dont even know why I chose this profession. It's very work intensive and requires a lot of deadlines not to mention to many projects at the same time. I've been sick lately and even infected my boss manager (I just sneezed and because of my runny nose). I wanted this challenge but I'm not that zombie enough to sacrifice rest. My only legit break is our one hour lunch. I feel grateful for the mental challenge and self-training though. Still the body cannot keep up. How to increase human energy?
In the midst of doing tasks, suddenly i want to cry. I just feel so tired and sad
My boss reduced me to tears this morning over a small mistake. It wasn't a big deal at all. But he kept screaming at me right in my face in front of everyone and I just can't handle that. He's so intimidating. And when I broke down crying he told me to "man up." Man up? I'm fourteen.
At work, everyone keeps their stack of training books and scripts on their desks. It's our main knowledge resource for everything. We don't have assigned seats and you're not supposed to take the books off the floor so we have to keep the books on the desk we last sat at, then take the books with us if we move. Someone took my books and I can't find them. I'm pissed. My books had all my notes, I flagged the important pages. I want my stuff back. I'm borrowing books from work, but I want my own. When I find my stuff, I'm asking my coach if I can put my stuff in his cabinet. I'm not having someone steal from me again.
There's this guy I work with. He's really cool and I hope we can become good friends. But I also have a weird crush on him. I say weird because I have no interest in dating him; I just want to have sex with him. And it's not even necessarily that I have no interest in dating him, I just know we wouldn't work out together. But that doesn't stop me from wanting to do terrible, dirty things with him. Unfortunately I don't believe in friends with benefits, and even if I did, he's got a girlfriend, so I'd never do anything with him. I really just want to be his friend more than anything tbh.