I had a crush on a guy from my training class at work. I knew he's married. I'm in a serious relationship too and I never, ever would've asked him out. It was just a fantasy. But once I met his wife and found out her ex husband cheated on her, I immediately stopped thinking about her husband like that. I've been cheated on before. I know how bad it hurts and how much it can mess with your trust in people. I couldn't keep imagining scenarios where she would be hurt like that again. And my boyfriend, I'm embarrassed with myself that I thought about another man. He's been nothing but good to me, never cheated, never gave me a reason to not trust him. I'm never telling my boyfriend or anyone else about that crush. It was nothing, led to nothing. Hopefully the guy from training class never caught on that I liked him. He's happily married. Never in my craziest dreams could I be a homewrecker.
Most people at my work that I cared about are quitting. So far I can think of at least 8 people that quit. It bums me out seeing empty desks and realizing how long it's been since I saw someone. I miss them. I'm worried I won't have anyone I care about at work.
A lot of my coworkers think I am around 5-6 years older than I am. They are all surprised to find out I am in my early twenties. They say that I act much more mature than that. But they dont know that I come home and curl up with a stuff animal and watch cartoons. They don't know that I love to color... a lot. That i have onsie pajamas. That I have a balnkie and stuffed animals that line every surface of my room. I have a collection of rubber duckies, but I love them. I am not a mature person at all.. I dont know how I pull it off....
I just want to cry but I can't. I went to my car during my lunch, planning to cry and even move my car if I needed more privacy. But my lunch passed and I can't cry while I'm at my desk. Maybe on my next break, if I get it done and clean up my face within 15 minutes.
being a woman is a burden in life. you always have to choose between family or higher education/career. doing both is always a possibility, but it'll still be slower and harder.
lately my workplace became toxic, the leadership changed as well as the system. i dont even feel like going to work everyday because of the people around.
Is this a coffin? Am I digging my own grave? I am aware now. Do I still have a chance to leave?
I mean them as compliment, but why you get shy, or are you a bit offended ?
I started a new job about 2 and half months ago. It's a very physically demanding job. 9-10 hour shifts where you sit down for an hour lunch break and thats it. It's so hot that you're forced to drink so much water. And personally, its forced me to eat better. I cant eat hot things when ove been so hot all day. So I make veggie filled pasta salad. and Fruit and veggie filled chicken salad. And I've dropped some weight. which i am so excited about! I didnt take the job because if those reasons. I took it because it was what was offered and I need a job. But I'm starting to think it's the best thing that could have ever happened. Now that I've gotten settled at the job and I'm not quite as exhausted when I get home, I think I'm gonna take up bike riding again. Years ago I used to go five miles every single day. I wanna get back into that again. And I think im gonna start forcing myself to eat more veggies in more ways. I don't like them cooked. But I wanna drop the weight even more. I want to get to a healthier weight. I want to learn to cook more healthy food. I love oven baked chicken with a little pepper and lemon. Now if could just add veggies to that instead of only noodles or rice. I just dont know where to get started. And I find it a little overwhelming. But it's something I need to do and know I need to do.
My work only gave me one rest day when the doctor says I need 3. Wow.