I always wanted to fight and been training at pro gyms since im 10 yrs old but never had courage to compete and stuff, i always thought i was too sensitive or smth idk why really but i saw Rose fighting and she's the best in the world and shes even more sensitive and soft spoken than i am :p so slowly shes become my hero, i wish well for her always, when she doing good and happy, i feel good, cuz i see myself in her :p also weili better put that belt in Rose's mailbox. flying knees incoming weili!!!!
Today i had my 3rd jiu jitsu practice, im so tired but feel so good, i cant wait to go again tomorrow, im gonna try to have 2 practices :p i need to wash my gi tho..
i had two martial arts practices today, one was gi jiu jitsu and the other no-gi. im buzzin from it lol it felt so awesome. i cant wait to learn more tomorrow!
It has been raining literally all week, 24/7 there have been varying degrees of rain intensity, but it never stopped, for 5 days now. this is the week i am supposed to move out. the weather forecast says tomorrow theres only a 50 percent chance of rain, as opposed to 100 percent like all the days before it. and on saturday theres a 0 percent chance of rain. my plan, is to go tomorrow to visit the house and speak to the owner and family there, and if they allow, i move out the next day, maybe even immediately, but i want to say goodbye to mom , she will want to hug and say things i plan to be away for 3 months only, i just want to get some new training in, and learn some jiu jitsu and wrestling, so as to not feel like i wasted my year, also just having a sparring again of boxing and muay thai i am sooo excited, my favourite thing to do on this planet, my most refined and beautiful art im scared of the ppl i will live with, i hope they are super respectful and will be accepting of me and not mean in any way.. they said they will wash my clothes for me too and i also can eat breakfast, i am afraid of being seen as abusing those services and gonna try my best to leave the least ammount of clothing to be washed and also eat very little for breakfast, and also try to stay away from the house as much as possible even if just for long walks haha im talking a set up i created that i can shoot 3d photos with, hoping maybe to get some free lance work lol, ppl seem to like those photos, but im pondering if i should take my real camera too, its just a regular semi pro canon. me and my friend talked about youtube videos before, maybe now we figure something out, i guess i will take it as well my friend has a small pick up truck, he's gonna help me move, thats why we have to wait for the rain so my stuff don't get wet. tonight i packed all my clothes that are here, and camera gear, massage gun, cupping therapy device, all my training equipment and gear, tomorrow i will talk to the landlord and hopefully visit it quick. also i should go to the pharmacy and leave my medicine order there ready, i need to remember to ask my friend tomorrow if he is free to use the car the next day after visiting the house, i will comeback home and hopefully have more clothes ready to pack, tonight i made a big pile with all the clothes i wanted to take for my mom to wash, i really hope she washes it soon. maybe i should wake up early to ask her, and even wash them myself, i never used machine only the soap, but i guess if i just put them in the machine it will wash them for me, i need those clothes quick, but actually even after i move out, i can just ask my mom to put the clothes outside and i just pick them up im excited for first training session, despite all these new exciting things and stress in my life, i must not forget, the most important thing of all is my art, and to not get distracted,and appreciate my art with love, otherwise i might catch a concussion and that would ruin everything. my friend is such good headkicker, and he's huge rn as well, hopefully i dont have to spar with his other friend, who is 2x national champ, if he asks to spar im honestly just gonna refuse lol he is not good sparring partner, he goes too hard, and will be brain damaged even now when he's so young. im trying to only train smart so i can go far and enjoy my art forever a classic job for most of the ninjas around is waitering, because its little hours and good pay, also good training, requires calmness, balance, ellegance and theres a lot of stress that u need to overcome, but now because of virus, theres no more such jobs. if i dont find job i guess its ok, it just mean i'll only get 3 months of training,maybe by 3 months i'll already be wanting to come home to my mom and the food :p haha who knows. tonight feels like a big night, how it felt when i was a kid to not sleep , because we would have road trip at 5 am, so i being big brain stayed up all night, and felt the secret emotions, and the feeling of adventure. i decided i wont be taking my keyboard to learn piano, i decided my arts will be enough to keep me engaged, and i can learn piano when i come back home again, probably there will still be virus and it will be good entertainment and ill be hungry for it. my biggest worry is food, i need to save so much, as much as possible, i have to make the most out of every cent with eating, i've been thinking to focus on leafy greens cuz really cheap, and then just eat a lot of rice and random grains like lentils beans and anything else cuz its so cheap, and then just eat the cheapest meats possible like liver, and cheap chicken cuts etc... i think maybe im just being paranoid lol, and after the first month i'll realize i can eat much more and better, but at first im not afraid to go full monk and eat super cheaply.. also i wonder if my parents will give some aids, a couple bucks every month, once im actually there, theyre generous, theyre just not make good decisions, like for example they could afford to help me live outside for months now, but they havent and i am with my life stopped because of it. all the young ppl in my country are making mad moves rn, because theyre the only ones who can do stuff, lots of opportunity. all the old ppl are (and should) be isolating . let we youngins handle this! trust us! im so excited to finally learn grappling, i only ever done striking arts, i wonder if i will be any good lol. i wonder how it will feel to tap the first time, and i wonder how long till i can tap someone . i wonder how will wrestling feel, im scared of hitting my head on the floor, wrestling is scary my hero and role model slamed her head while grappling on accident, she hurt herself, i cried for days. i want to be really good, and show everyone that my heroes style and approach is the best there is, and that she just made a little mistake that night because she was sad and worried, not because her style is bad or shes not good. she is the best, on the whole planet, and the best ninja, i want to be just like her
I was told people can make a lot of money by commisioning porn drawings online. im good at drawing especially bodies, but just wondering, it'd be nice if i could do something like that. seems very... flexible hours hehe
the company i work for provides residece for ts employees at all branches. i alwez hv an urge to hv sex with my workmates. i hv slept with 5 so far. at one tym i was sleeping with 2 collegues and almost suggested we have a orgy. i hv been 'lucky' that most braches i am posted to hv only females with me as the only guy. i slept with a subordinate and t was the best sex..but now i want to stop.
Im moving out of my house this week, to keep training cuz i had to stopped cuz i live with my parents and the virus and stuff. im renting a room in a house where it lives a dude, his son and i guess a grandpa. im really excited but also nervous, im gonna try to be invisible and not bother anyone cuz im really anxious about not being welcomed somewhere i guess. im gonna try to stay outside as much as possible ... when renting rooms everyone always asking ''do u work'' cuz they want ppl who will only come home to sleep basically, well i dont work like that, but gonna try to train 3x a day to stay away lol
I knew immediately that DC had lost his eye. the very second he got eye poked i could tell immediately he lost his eye. how tragic , eyes dont heal. he lost his vision. this sport is sad sometimes
i used to hang out with a coworker on fridays after work some years back. I'd bring beers over and kick back before going home. one time when i was hanging out he asked if i was into his wife. i thought maybe he caught me checking her out. i said no. he told me she liked me and if i wanted to be with her i could. i thought he was fucking with me and i laughed. he said seriously, she's in the room go ahead. i still thought he was fucking with but i went to his room. his wife was in the room watching tv. when i popped my head i asked what's she was up to. she said just watching tv and invited me to join her. i sat on the bed next to her with one leg still hanging over the edge touching the floor. she leaned in and rested her head on my chest. i began stroking her hair till we started kissing. her and i ended up fucking a couple of times that night. at some point my coworker came into the room to watch us. when we finished up and as we laid in bed, my coworker came into the bed and started going down on her. her and started kissing again and after i was hard again my coworker started sucking me off. i was freaked out at first but his wife held me while he did it. it was a freaky experience i enjoyed with them a few times. my only regret was not fucking him up his ass and making him my bitch too.
im selling my pc this week and moving out with the money. im renting a pension room and sharing bathroom and kitchen , yuck! but at least i get out of this house and go chase my dream :p