In highschool I didnt give a f*ck if you didnt liked me, if you thought I was ugly or hell I didnt care about comparing myself to other females who where prettier then me. Now I am 25 and I feel like I have hit this mile stone sooo late. I look at other beautiful females and just think I wish I could look like that. I now worry about people liking me or not liking me. I worry about how others see me. I dont want to be the bad guy. I want to be good. I want to be liked. I want to have friends. But now I worry so much it have givin me bad anxiety. So bad that I over think everything. How a person reacts when I talk to them. How they move. How their face makes their expressions and honestly it f*ckin sucks.
I work in a dental clinic and we just got news that we'll start working again this Saturday. After two weeks of staying at home, it's terrifying to think that we'll be outside again. We don't know who's infected or not. Before the temporary closure of our clinic due to the increasing cases of covid 19, we already have patients that coughs and sneezes while were working on there teeth. It scares me that we'll be dealing with those again especially that we already have a case of covid 19 in our region.
I work at UPS, so I'm not allowed to miss work unless I get diagnosed with COVID-19. Work has been really slow, and while I'm glad I haven't been getting destroyed by boxes... I can't help but be sad knowing that the pandemic is the reason it's slow. And I'm also incredibly bored, and I've got nothing to do to pass the time. My job is isolated from the rest of my area, so no one really talks to me... I hate feeling lonely at home and then also being lonely at the only place I can hope for social interaction. 6 feet isn't that far apart. I just want someone to talk to me.
About a year ago, I was working in a call center. I worked for RCI, a timeshare exchange company. I got fired in March of last year and I'm so glad I'm done with them. I can't imagine working for a vacation exchange company during the COVID19 pandemic. They're not booking any trips. It's probably a lot of cancelling trips, and extending points for free, and listening to already entitled assholes bitch about not going to Cabo this year. I doubt anyone is upselling anything. I hope they're not pushed to upsell right now. I hope my old coworkers there are ok, but I am so glad I'm not one of them.
I'm currently working as a nurse in Saudi. It's my first time working in abroad. It's already 5 months since I started working here and I still feel unwelcome. I tried to reach out, suggest things, hang out with them, etc. but I just can't fit in. There are some times that they're okay with me but most of the time that make me feel that I don't belong. Some of them are good to me, but there are some who just doesn't want me there. If we're working, it's ok because I'll not be able to think of those things because were always busy and when we go home, I'll just go to sleep early. But now that everything's in lockdown and we can't go out, I feel alone and stuck in a place where I can't fit in. I hope I explained it well. English is not my first language. I just want to vent out because I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't want my family and friends at home to worry about me.
Please don't joke about social distancing when your wife had a hacking cough twice while in my line at the store. Y'all should be staying the frick home! Or at least get your wife to stay in the car. She might not have COVID19, it might've been allergies or a regular cold. But I don't know that! Stay home if at all possible. If it was up to me, I'd be at home right now, but I can't get paid leave unless I have a confirmed case or the government forces us to close. Stay the hell home. It's not that hard.
I have to get this off my chest, I feel so guilty and disgusting. I used to have a crush on my coworker, but got over it when my friend started dating him, and then even more so when their relationship went south and he showed his true colors. He's kind of not a good person under the surface. Today we had a going away party for him at work. He was giving out goodbye hugs, and when he offered me one, I accepted to be polite, because I'm still being cordial with him. And the second he had his arms around me, I just melted. A year ago, I would have died to feel his arms around me, but today, I'm in a happy relationship with a nearly perfect boyfriend and I recognize that I dodged a bullet with my former crush. But that hug felt so nice. He caressed my hair and held me for what felt like a very long time, and I felt so at home. And I hate that. Why did I feel that? Why did I react like that? I know I used to be in love with him, but I barely even like him as a human now, much less as a potential mate. But physically I'm still drawn in by him, his scent still makes my heart race, his voice still gives me shivers, his eyes still make me weak. Why? I'm so mad and disgusted with myself, not to mention I'm kind of freaked out that he touched me that way because caressing someone's hair is not something that happens in a casual, friendly hug. I feel guilty for liking it when I have a boyfriend. I feel guilty for, deep down, a tiny part of me still craving that touch again, just wanting him close to me, despite how I feel about him.
just came from an job orientation, why do the safety and harassment videoes always set in or taking place 20 yrs ago?
drug screening and physical are tomorrow.... yall ithink I got this new job.
I need support. . I really... really.. really, really REALLY want to become a videogame streamer, cause all my life is based on videogames since I was like 3 years old, I'm pretty good at them, I also have a lot of games and different consoles and bought a capture device to do it a couple of months ago... the problem is that I will be 27 this year, and I feel old to start doing it, also I don't think I am attractive enough to do it.... so I haven't even started doing it because I fear people won't relate to me u.u