I'm currently working as a nurse in Saudi. It's my first time working in abroad. It's already 5 months since I started working here and I still feel unwelcome. I tried to reach out, suggest things, hang out with them, etc. but I just can't fit in. There are some times that they're okay with me but most of the time that make me feel that I don't belong. Some of them are good to me, but there are some who just doesn't want me there. If we're working, it's ok because I'll not be able to think of those things because were always busy and when we go home, I'll just go to sleep early. But now that everything's in lockdown and we can't go out, I feel alone and stuck in a place where I can't fit in. I hope I explained it well. English is not my first language. I just want to vent out because I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't want my family and friends at home to worry about me.
Please don't joke about social distancing when your wife had a hacking cough twice while in my line at the store. Y'all should be staying the frick home! Or at least get your wife to stay in the car. She might not have COVID19, it might've been allergies or a regular cold. But I don't know that! Stay home if at all possible. If it was up to me, I'd be at home right now, but I can't get paid leave unless I have a confirmed case or the government forces us to close. Stay the hell home. It's not that hard.
I have to get this off my chest, I feel so guilty and disgusting. I used to have a crush on my coworker, but got over it when my friend started dating him, and then even more so when their relationship went south and he showed his true colors. He's kind of not a good person under the surface. Today we had a going away party for him at work. He was giving out goodbye hugs, and when he offered me one, I accepted to be polite, because I'm still being cordial with him. And the second he had his arms around me, I just melted. A year ago, I would have died to feel his arms around me, but today, I'm in a happy relationship with a nearly perfect boyfriend and I recognize that I dodged a bullet with my former crush. But that hug felt so nice. He caressed my hair and held me for what felt like a very long time, and I felt so at home. And I hate that. Why did I feel that? Why did I react like that? I know I used to be in love with him, but I barely even like him as a human now, much less as a potential mate. But physically I'm still drawn in by him, his scent still makes my heart race, his voice still gives me shivers, his eyes still make me weak. Why? I'm so mad and disgusted with myself, not to mention I'm kind of freaked out that he touched me that way because caressing someone's hair is not something that happens in a casual, friendly hug. I feel guilty for liking it when I have a boyfriend. I feel guilty for, deep down, a tiny part of me still craving that touch again, just wanting him close to me, despite how I feel about him.
just came from an job orientation, why do the safety and harassment videoes always set in or taking place 20 yrs ago?
drug screening and physical are tomorrow.... yall ithink I got this new job.
I need support. . I really... really.. really, really REALLY want to become a videogame streamer, cause all my life is based on videogames since I was like 3 years old, I'm pretty good at them, I also have a lot of games and different consoles and bought a capture device to do it a couple of months ago... the problem is that I will be 27 this year, and I feel old to start doing it, also I don't think I am attractive enough to do it.... so I haven't even started doing it because I fear people won't relate to me u.u
I got a call back from job..!!! hopefully this is a step forward.
less than a wk until my last day now they want to ask if I can stay longer....bruh no thanks
I really wanna be successful and do great things in my life. I want to be a musician actually, a singer but I live in a small town with no opportunities. I'm 16.. I just wanted to say it. When you live in a small town it's hard not to think what other people will say and you really question if you are talented enough.. Thanks to everyone who read this, I hope you achieve everything you want
It pisses me off when coworkers just don't do their job. Like the other day someone left a broken pickle jar on the floor before waiting for maintenance to come or even trying to clean it up themselves. That's broken glass and liquid on the floor! We can't just leave it there. No wet floor sign, no rope to show that register line is closed, no one guarding the spill (per company policy that everyone is trained with), nothing. It was pretty slow but still! Someone will get hurt and sue with crap like that. I heard them call for maintenance while I was on lunch but I assumed they got it. It didn't get cleaned up for at least half an hour, because another coworker saw it and immediately got a broom. The one that left it is still kind of new but still, I'm pretty sure they're smart enough to know broken glass and liquid is dangerous.