Perhaps this is the only place safe enough for me to say this, but even so, I'm still shaking at the idea of other people knowing what I'm about to say. My dad rapes me. Violently. At night time. He has ever since I turned 15, I'm 16 now. It doesn't matter to him that I am a boy, he just wants the sex. So, every night that I can, I leave home before he gets me and walk to a house that's a 25-minute walk away from our apartment. I sneak up to their attic and sleep on an old mattress that they have in there. Then in the morning, I climb down, and sneak out the same way I came in. The owners of the house don't know that I do this, and their kid is one of my classmates, who also doesn't know I do this. I know this is wrong. I know. But I have nowhere else to go. I don't have any friends or family. I can't sleep out on the benches or anything because the police wake me up and tell me to go home. And I can't tell the police about the rape because I have committed some crimes myself and if I ever report my dad, he will tell them about all the laws I have broken and send me to jail with him. It's his way of keeping me silent. He knows I can't tell anyone about the rape, which is why he does it so often and so confidently. I really am the worst kind of person. A weak, pathetic, selfish creep. But is it really that bad? To want to seek safety, at the discomfort of others? This is a question I ask myself every day. I don't know the answer. Morals are a complicated thing, I'll admit. I know what I'm doing is wrong to an extent, but does make it less evil if I'm only doing it to avoid being raped until I bleed? I don't know. I don't.
If you like me, please tell me. You have to understand that I'm not in a position to tell you first, but I'm trying to make it as subtly apparent as I can. I get the feeling you might actually feel the same way I do, but we'll never know if you don't bring it up. If I say something first, I could ruin everything. But you won't. It has to be you. I'm begging you, make the first move if you really feel the way I think you do.
just a heads up. you make your girl 75% more suspicious when you have to bring your phone with you everytime you leave the room. no secrets. no worries 💁
every space created for black women to tell their stories/perspective gets co-opted by the black lgbt community then the broader lgbt community until black women feel voiceless again. It is easy to see the parallels between a black woman's struggles and say a gay black man's but they're not exactly the same. And truthfully, there are some areas where the two are socially and politically opposed. This is not to blame lgbt people, because some black women are in a perpetual identity crisis where they're not sure what issues/interests are their own and what are others'. It's just annoying. One of the reasons society still has a hard time understanding black women or liking them is because black women tend to identify with EVERYONE's struggle or the idea of struggle more than they're willing to do the work to form or share a coherent perspective on their role in the world. Again, it's just annoying.
PLEASE STAWP!!! My friend has been rambling on via text about her boyfriend for the past hour and I’m barely even replying. At first it was because I was driving so I would only reply at a redlight but then it started to go on and on and on. If I don’t reply after a minute or two she’ll just keep going. When I try to change the subject she’ll just ignore everything I said and keep going on and on about it. I haven’t replied to her messages for 3 minutes and she’s already sent 13 of them. I’ll go reply haha or some one word answer and she’ll still force the subject for another 50 messages. Eventually I get tired of it because I just don’t care so i’ll leave her on read and she’ll still keep going. It’s getting on my nerves. I do not care. It is of no interest to me. If I don’t reply it’s because I don’t want to be apart of the conversation it doesn’t mean send me 30 messages. Yesterday she was rambling on about instagram which I don’t even use. After the 1st 10 minutes I ended up falling asleep. I woke up a few hours later to over 100 messages most of which were her going on about Instagram and then she changed the subject to some video she saw then went back to rambling about Instagram. I did not reply to any of it within that time I was asleep. It’s getting crazy I don’t know what else to do. You woule think she would get the hint after no reply for multiple hours to almost a hundred messages. GET A CLUE
If someone breaks your stuff, but it's totally an accident, do you expect them to pay for it? My boyfriend just broke my phone screen by "throwing" the remote control on it - just that he didn't throw it on purpose, the remote was hidden in the bedsheets and he wanted to make the bed, doing a shaking motion, which catapulted the remote right onto my phone, with enough force to break it. The chance of this happening is so slim that I would've applauded, if I wasn't so mad about my brand new $200 device being ruined. He doesn't want to pay a penny, arguing that this could've happened to me as well, had I made the bed. We also can't remember who left the remote in the bed. I think I'm generally on his side, but I simply don't have the money for it, which makes me irrational.
Trying to use a restroom in public. In almost the last stall, alone. Two girls walk in and use the stalls on either side of me. Why? Why??? Literally every other stall is open, and I know the one to the left of me is dirty, cause I almost went in that one. Wtf my dudes I'm just trying to poop in peace
I am 22 years old. Looking back on my life and analyzing behaviors I exhibit, I suspect that I may have a mild form of autism. I want to get tested, but I'm too afraid of my mom belittling me. Any time I suspect I may have some sickness or condition, she puts me down- even if I end up having it. She thinks I just want things to be wrong with me. The truth is, I just want answers. I want reasons. Not excuses.
Fuck that faggot. Or at least he sounded like one. Sensitive, emotional bitchass nigga. Weak ounk muthafuqa. Sucka ass fag. Smh
One thing that really bugs me is when someone complains about their relationship (and not about the whole thing, but just an aspect of it) online and most comments are "break up". Not just on here, also on other forums. I'm not sure if it's just an internet phenomenon to think that if a person complains about something, they must find the whole thing bad, not just the one aspect they complain about; or if it just shows how nowadays people's mindset is to immediately break up a relationship instead of fixing it. Sure, there really are situations that should lead to a break up, like e.g. abuse. But in most cases, those comments just don't help. You don't know that person's relationship. Just because her boyfriend doesn't do the dishes or because his girlfriend won't give him a bj, it doesn't mean they aren't wonderful people apart from that one bad habit, that they aren't in love or aren't functioning as a wonderful team.