I had unintentionally been ignoring my friends because of the hurt they unknowingly caused me. I know it’s my fault that I fall asleep in class and make a fool of my self and they are just trying to help me by advising me but the way they put it hurts me a lot. I don’t care about others but I care about their view on me bc we’re friends. I’m now struggling to reply to them and honestly, I think I just made a rift because of all the internal hurt that has been compiling in me. I didn’t want this to happen but I caused it. I’m a shitty friend for doing this. This sucks too much and I’m coward because of I’ve been phobic of closer relationships since my falling out with my one of best friends. I don’t want a repeat of that. I’m shitty and I own up to that. This may seem minor but these internal battle I have been facing for so long has made me do rash decisions. I’m sorry guys for being a coward. I’m sorry for not being enough. I’m sorry and I hope one day we’ll forgive each other because I can’t trust you guys yet, not wholly.
If you name your kid "Crystal" I'm gonna assume she is named after Crystal Meth. I haven't been wrong about it yet.
I don't know what I'm doing, when it comes to relationships. I get it wrong a lot, and end up being single. I don't know how this one will turn out. So far, I've never been pregnant and honestly may just not have children at all. I don't even feel bad about that.
I hate it when someone on the Internet mocks me for not understanding that what they said was a joke. I mean, we're using a written medium here with no tone of voice to listen to! Plus, they didn't even use emojis to compensate for that. So how the hell was I supposed to know!?
One of my favourite things about living alone is being able to fart whenever I need to without worrying about grossing people out. It's a normal body function, it's healthy, but yeah it can be disgusting for others to hear/smell.
I have a 3 legged dog. Hes a great pyrenees so hes a big dog. He is missing one of his back legs. When he was around a year old, he got hit by car and it broke that leg. We spent 2 different surgeries and 6 months trying to get it to heal and it wouldn't. So we had to amputate. He is now 3 years old and gets around amazingly. We go to the park pretty regularly so he can get out and exercise in more than just the back yard. People are constantly like "poor baby! thats so sad!" And i try and tell them that he is fine. theres no need for pity. No one listens. Ive had a lot ask why i dont get him a fake leg or a wheelchair. Because hes fine. He has no issues getting around. Hell he even play fights and romps with the other dogs. He sees his vet. He takes things to help with his hips and joints. He eats a healthy diet. He gets treats and bones and toys and socializing. He is a perfecty well rounded dog. Dont tell your kids "yeah you see the 3 legs? hes a special doggy" in a condescending tone. Hes not special. Hes a normal dog. You wouldn't tell your kids that a person missing a limb is special. Youd tell them to treat them like a regular person. So do the same with my dog. Ive had one woman stand over him damn near in tears about his leg. I kept telling her that he was okay. She kept being like "but his leg!!!" and then HE walked away from her. And she straightened up and said "Oh.... I guess he does get around okay." yeah no shit. ive been telling you that for the last 5 minutes. He doesnt need your pity. Now he greatly appreciates your pats and scratches. But he doesnt need pity. Hes just like any other dog.
my mom is constantly on my case about my weight and money i'm spending. i'm oneof the most tight wad people in my life and yet every time I buy something, it's "you're wasting ur money again?" "why would u spend on that" "you're supposed to be saving" meanwhile she owes me 10k and my dad is an addict so they spend on much stupider things. then the weight thing. telling me I need to lose weight. stop eating junk food, i'm gonna get fat, etc. but then I join a gym this week and she went on for 20mins about why I would join a gym, i'm busy enough as it is, I don't have time to waste my money on a gym. oh my fuck like shut up. nothing I ever do is right.
ewww it's disgusting that old man 40 years old asked me for dating while i'm 19
My brother got annoyed because I've been texting him a lot today. I understand that, some days you just don't feel so sociable. But every time I make him annoyed, which isn't even that often, I feel like I'm the worst sister ever and an inconsiderate person. I feel terrible right now. I don't know why I react like this.
One of my favorite things is to write in a script that doesn't belong to the language I'm writing in. For example, writing french in cyrillic or english with hiragana.