I have the habit of watch gay porn I don't know why I do it to be honest I am a Christian female. but for some reason I am very attractive to it Lord please forgive me
will be 28 soon and yes still a virgin 27 lonely years never had a boyfriend never dated was all was scared to b/c of my lack of self-esteem only two years separating from the big 30 I am sad that will never find love
My depression has been really bad lately. I'm so stressed that I'm craving cigarettes even though I've never smoked. I had a full mental breakdown yesterday and cried myself to sleep, fighting thoughts of self hatred and worthlessness. I don't want to kill myself, but lingering in the back of my mind, I still hear whispers of death promising me comfort and peace. I am so tired of feeling like this.
I have to work from home currently. Started staying home 2 or 3 weeks ago... I think it was 3. I can't be monitored, I was basically given multiple projects and once the quarantine is over, I have to hand in my results. And I haven't done A. Single. Thing. All I've been doing the past weeks is switching between laying on the couch and on the bed, eat junk food, play video games and take walks from my front door to the trash cans and back. I have depression and am generally a lazy piece of ass, so this whole situation is really hard for me. I can't bring myself to do any work if I don't immediately have to. I know that once this thing is over, I will face a load of problems. I hate myself
I want to sleep with older guys so much. I get so turned on when I think about having a guy 10 to 20 years older than me on or in me. but none around me wants to do it.
I work in a dental clinic and we just got news that we'll start working again this Saturday. After two weeks of staying at home, it's terrifying to think that we'll be outside again. We don't know who's infected or not. Before the temporary closure of our clinic due to the increasing cases of covid 19, we already have patients that coughs and sneezes while were working on there teeth. It scares me that we'll be dealing with those again especially that we already have a case of covid 19 in our region.