I should kill myself, I don't care about nothing or anyone
I'm a virgin single girl, likes to watch gay porn and actually get wet. Is it wrong?
Fuck crackers and fuck the police.
I'm living in incest. I want to stop but I don't want to stop at the same time. I think I'll end my life.
My anxiety is killing me right now. All because I went to the bank to make a deposit and I thought some woman was getting ahead of me in line. She was right but the short and rather uncomfortable conversation is enough to make nervous for a few days. I will also not hear heavy metal because it just makes me more anxious, it's like I took a big dose of caffeine.
l want to be tickled .
I don't know how people can be with the same person for so many years. Maybe it's because I've never had a stable, long-term relationship . . but the thought of being with one person forever seems daunting and boring.
I have really bad self esteem issues, and it's been like this ever sense I was young. I can never see myself as good enough for anyone or anything. I always put myself down for everything. "Im not cute enough for anyone" "Im not skinny enough" "I'm not smart enough" "So and so is better than me" "I wish I looked like that" "Who would pick me when theres so many more better looking/smarter/wiser/deserving people". It's ALWAYS something. I don't hate myself, at least I never thought I did . . But the way I treat myself has started to make me think I do. I wish for once I was happy and accepting of who I am.
I've been so deprived from male attention/interaction that I've had these two mini crushes on my two male co-workers - and they're not even my "type". They're good people, just not anyone I would ever in my right mind actually, romantically like. I think my brain is clouding over with desperation. I need help.
when i was 16, me and my cousin started hooking up. she used to come over to my house everyday . it started with us playing "wrestling" ..one thing lead to another .. the crazy part was that' i was a virgin, i lost my virginity to my cousin .we hooked up a few times, there was one moment we had around Christmas. she came over and got very drunk 😏 she couldnt hold back. she didnt care anymore and came into my room that night. we were so loud, im surprised we didnt get caught.. to be continued 😉