I'm slowly becoming more convinced that people can be "made" gay. I've been listening to erotic hypnosis and slowly I've been developing attractions towards shemales. I've never before had any attraction towards them and found them repulsive. the theme of the hypnosis has revolved around subservience to dommes and lightly references shemales. very obscurely though. prolonged exposure to it has reshaped my desires to actually find shemales somewhat attractive. I did more research and there's a whole underworld of hypnosis that's effective at turning submissive males into gays. and it works too. it's very subtle but the direction is there. everything starts rosy with only women being referenced but then shemales are referenced and eventually men. it's kind of scary.
Im a 19 y.o girl .. there is that dude we are something like sex friends.. I mean he took me to his place twice .. the 1st time we just make out 4 a while .. but the second time I spent the whole night sleeping on his shoulder.. Then there was my bff bday party when a girl was into him they were flirting but he kept his eyes on me.. He was looking in a beautiful way with so much love as always .. I couldn't dance I didn't dance almost the whole night because they were dancin together and I have no partner .. Though that is not the prob !! The prob is that he doesn't always respond to my texts and don't always text me and leave me on seen.. Okay I got it that in front of ppl he may not talk to me and do like he doesn't even know me because of the hickeys on our necks .. Idk can u help!! I just wanna know why this is so weird .. Why we can't be normal in front of every1 !!
i feel like almost everyone in my generation are whores. they just accept themselves and others so they think sex at such a young age and with some many people is the norm. I guess we live in a society where being a hoe is normal and being inncocent is rare asf. its not even being innocent thats rare just not being easy and not giving it to literally every person you date is rare like young people even think its a bad thing to still be a virgin and keep it a secret if they feel too old. like bitch ur 19 its okay to be a virgin.
my mom is constantly on my case about my weight and money i'm spending. i'm oneof the most tight wad people in my life and yet every time I buy something, it's "you're wasting ur money again?" "why would u spend on that" "you're supposed to be saving" meanwhile she owes me 10k and my dad is an addict so they spend on much stupider things. then the weight thing. telling me I need to lose weight. stop eating junk food, i'm gonna get fat, etc. but then I join a gym this week and she went on for 20mins about why I would join a gym, i'm busy enough as it is, I don't have time to waste my money on a gym. oh my fuck like shut up. nothing I ever do is right.
when you're sad about something, do you just cry yourself harder by breaking out and thinking about multiple of other completely irrelevant sad events/scenarios?? please tell me im not the only one. i feel like a complete drama queen when i do this and i dont know why i do it but its kinda funny
i dont need therapy but i've always been curious about therapists. when a therapist needs therapy themselves would they just refuse to go to one since they already know and can predict the ins and outs of the session? do they come home with an emotional baggage of their clients? how do they deal with it? do they get emotionally attached to their patients? do they learn how to emotionally shield themselves between them and their clients so they won't risk of crying? do they have the urge to cry in sessions? and yeah i get the whole thing of 'professionalsm' and the idea of barricading work and life but if you look at it at a more personal and human aspect it must've taken a toll to their mental health, its kind of ironic. and to think they go by with this on a daily basis like, im just amazed by them and i dont think we give them enough credit
When someone uses a word I find phonetically funny, it's awkward when I start smiling like an idiot and I have to convince the other person that I'm not laughing at them.
Remember Lonely Island's "I Just Had Sex" song? Well, I'm still waiting to sing with them. FML.
I'm surprised to say this, but I enjoy working at Walmart more than a call center. With the call center, it made my anxiety and depression spike. There was too much pressure to sell products and keep your handle time low. But if customers won't take what I'm pitching and they won't get off the phone, that's not my fault. Plus the entitled, angry douchebags made me not want to come back in the next day. I was miserable, I thought it was my fault for not having the money to go to a doctor for medicine or therapy. But since I've been out of there, my anxiety and depression hasn't spiked. I also thought my period was making my anxiety and depression worse, but I've had my period while working at Wal-Mart and my mood barely changed. I love the Walmart I work at. The atmosphere is very relaxed for a Walmart, the customers are nice, the managers and co-workers are nice. The one downside to working there is my feet are killing me. Once I get some better work shoes and maybe Dr Scholls inserts, hopefully it won't hurt so much. But I'd much rather have achey, callused feet than a mini mental breakdown every couple of months. I know that when the holidays and Black Friday get here, I'm probably going to stress then. But by then, I'll have 7 or 8 months experience and advice from coworkers on how to get through it. I just want to do well there and maybe turn it into a career one day.
One of my favorite things is to write in a script that doesn't belong to the language I'm writing in. For example, writing french in cyrillic or english with hiragana.