My mom can be such an asshole sometimes. But I still love her and I dont know what I would do without her.
My brother likes pranking my cat. But this time it's a totally different level. He cut off her whiskers. Cat whiskers never grows back and I'm sooo pissed off at him that I wanna sue him for doing that. It was just stupid I think. Now my cat is always tired and anxious at her surroundings...
I currently hate my work so much that I cry literally every day. I don't know how to make it through the next hour, let alone next few months. The thing is, I'll only be here for the next few months. Then I'll be referred to the workplace I actually want to work at, so it wouldn't make any sense to quit. I already tried everything, I tried negotiating with my boss, tried to talk to my co-workers about the things that are bugging me, but there's no point. Things are as they are. I can't even take my holiday leave or a sick leave during those months, because then I'd risk losing the position. I have to sit through it. Somehow.
I wish my boyfriend would understand that I don't want to tell him explicitly what I want for my birthday or that I want him to bring me flowers or my favourite cookies every now and then, because I don't want him to buy me things to get things for free- I want him to give me those things to show me that he thinks of me on his way home, that he sees something and thinks "She would like that" and then can't wait to see the smile on my face. I want him to know me and listen to me when I talk about something I want. But how can I make him know this without actually saying this - as saying it would totally defeat the purpose, because then I couldn't enjoy any flower he brings home because I'd just think he did it for the wrong reasons?
i just want to be able to smile again..that's all..
I know my friends are planning to go somewhere for a weekend. But no one told me or invited me even if the plans were made a few weeks ago. I just feel like I'm never really a part of anything at all. No one dislikes me and everyone likes me, I just never am close to someone or get invited for things unless it's in the hopes of dating me.
Sorry for the long one in advance. So I grew up with only my mother. My dad tried to kidnap me twice as a child and succeeded once so haven't seen him since I was young and he went to jail for this. In the meantime my childhood has been tough for a number of reasons, one of them is that I've always been my mothers only form or support. When I was 11 years old I found out she has a chronic disease, Huntington disease if anyone cares, and so I've over the years become my mother's mother more and more. And though I can take a lot and still love my mother, she hasn't always been good. She called me worthless and cried about wanting to die because of me nearly on the daily, breaking half the house in her rage on the regular. And even though I'm an adult now and I moved out some years ago already, I still get bothered by her a lot. She calls me 3 times a day at least, constantly tries to come over and pick me up from work and so on. And many say "why do you complain, your mother is just spoiling you, I wish I had a mom ready to pick me up any time". Well not if it means crossing over personal boundaries. One day I was on a date with my (then) boyfriend who lived oversees. Him and I would go on a double date but we were way too early so being in the city centre already anyway we decided to pop into a store as he needed some clothes. When my mom texted how I was I happily replied what we were doing and she want crazy on us. Getting angry and ranging on and on about how she didn't get to go along. This was just hopping into a store for like 20 minutes mind you. And the other day I had to get angry and scream, legit scream at her that she wasn't allowed to come to my house because I had to leave. All I did was ask if she knew where something was which I lost after she visited. I never needed her to come over. Its just become disrespectful and condescending by now how much she's even unwilling to consider I have boundaries. I don't know what to do. Tldr: My mother is just too much, I don't know what to do.
It’s raining really hard right now and my boyfriend and I have been stuck in this little treehouse playing board games for the past hour and he just told me the sweetest thing ever. He told me that the rain reminded him of this day, way back before we started dating, when I showed up at his front door dripping wet in my yellow raincoat and he took me up to his room and helped me dry off and asked me why I didn’t wait until the storm passed before walking over and I told him that I just couldn’t wait because I had a bunch of books in my backpack that I was dying to show him. He said that was the day when he realized he liked me! He was like “I swear when I opened the door and saw you in that little yellow raincoat with your hair all wet my heart just about burst into a million pieces” and oh my gosh that is so hilarious and endearing to me. I love it. It’s so peculiar because now that I think of it, it was raining on the day that I realized I liked him, too. It was during a school fire drill actually. I just remember sitting on the sidewalk watching the classes file out of the building, and then his class came out. He was with some friends, and they were all laughing because he’d stepped in a giant puddle and his entire shoe was soaking wet. He was laughing, too. He looked so happy about something so unfortunate. I didn’t understand it at all, but I just couldn’t take my eyes off him. Then a girl sat next to me and asked me what I was staring at, and I suddenly felt really flustered and, uh.. hopeful. But I didn’t know why. I didn’t even know his name back then. Looking at him shouldn’t have affected me like that. But it did. But anyway, we’re still stuck in this treehouse and I just lost our game of chess. My boyfriend’s asleep on my lap now and when it stops raining I’m going to wake him up so we can go get coffee at the restaurant down the street. I’m just so happy. It’s been such a nice day.
People are fucking ridiculous today. If you rant and scream and cuss at me, I'm done helping you. I've told you everything I can do, screaming at me isn't solving anything. I don't give a damn how smart you say you are. I don't give a damn what you do for a living because it sure as hell isn't relevant here. I don't care. I don't even care about your lawyers because what you're ranting about isn't worth the legal fees. You are just a loud jackass and I hope you get explosive diarrhea. I hope you piss off someone and they slip an extra strength laxative in your food.
My work environment is incredibly toxic. My manager and boss are driving everyone insane. I want to quit, but I need the income and don't really have the time to look for another job. I plan to save up and quit in a month or two tops, but staying positive and energized while being there is impossible and its getting to me. I wish I could throw caution to the wind and just quit now, but that wouldn't be smart