My heart breaks as the days go by... Because I know that even if I do leave her, nothing will change for her, and she really won't care...
Quick life lesson: some people are natural born assholes. Fuck em.
Why can't gender neutrality be a thing in our society? Every single person is plopped down into one of two boxes from the second they are born. And straying from this box never means anything good. It's why I don't correct people most of the time. I don't feel like getting into an argument over why I use they and them and my pronouns. Because why should I worry about what makes me comfortable? It's only about the person who is referring to me, right? And if they are not comfortable using gender neutral language for me, then I'm the asshole to even think of asking that of them.
my mom is a nasty whore but doesn't see herself that way because she goes to church. she is always walking around our home naked.. since I was small;... but then turns around and calls me attention seeking though I never show nudity and wasn't sexually active until i was an ADULT. she uses the bathroom with the door open no matter wat.. even if she is shitting. she grabbed my vagina when i was 22 I told my sister (11 years older) she was disgusted. My mom is always competing with me and copying my style. She wants to know TMI when it comes to my bf. She never meets any guy I date, because I know she will be inappropriate with him, she's so fucking old and disgusting... I hate how old people won't be old in 2017... they still wanna act like the youth, mingle w. us, date us.. ew.. grow the fuck up... you've got fucking grays and wrinkles and achy knees go away old men and women
The realization that now I have less than a month left to do all my assignments and study for exams...
most hateful words for today : childish, unprofessional, sulking, panicking
poker face...FUCK YOU!!!!!! come on man, u're a grown man with beard..don't be too childish, u really embarrassing me
when I feel empty or insecure I stuff myself with food
I was offered a job lately and accepted without even asking what exactly I'll have to do there. When I was invited for the interview, I was so nervous that I just agreed on everything they asked me - even when they explained my tasks, I said I can do it. I just was so nervous. I signed the work contract and everything. But I actually don't want to do this job, I don't really have the qualifications even though I told them so, and also, I hate the work I'll have to do - but I don't have the guts to tell my boss. Because of the two week notice thing. I have to start on Monday and they count on me because they won't find another person until then. I've already decided to do it. But I'm still terribly afraid because I'll be making a fool out of myself, even in front of some people I know. In a year, I'll probably look back an laugh about it, but right now it's bad. I can't even sleep. Thanks for letting me get it off my chest.
I think the only justified reason for me to stay with her, is if I decide to put up with being tossed on the side..