I know my friends are planning to go somewhere for a weekend. But no one told me or invited me even if the plans were made a few weeks ago. I just feel like I'm never really a part of anything at all. No one dislikes me and everyone likes me, I just never am close to someone or get invited for things unless it's in the hopes of dating me.
I'm on day 9 of a 30 day fitness challenge on an app. I've only lost a pound but I have a pair of jeans that fit much better already. But I haven't told anyone outside of this site that I'm even working out. I'm worried it'll jinx me and I'll lose my motivation. At this point I'm worried it's gone on so long it'd be weird to tell my boyfriend I've been secretly working out before he wakes up every day. It's not really a bad thing to exercise, I just don't want him to think I'm judging him for not exercising. I'm also not trying to get skinny. I just want to get healthier. If I lose some of this belly fat, that's just a bonus. I do need to tell him though. I had a bad muscle cramp in my leg yesterday and I don't know how else to explain it. Probably strained it doing squats or something.
I just feel like everything is falling apart
I dated this guy back in highschool which I considered myself lucky cause he was super popular with the girls and I wasnt the "super pretty cheerleader" type. I was a chubby emo girl for sure but anyways, We broke up and I found out we broke up cause he found a girl he talked too on the internet and that really messed with my self-esteem. But now Im dating his best freind and we have been together for 6 years and we have two kids, still going strong so the moral of the story is that things are going to be shitty at first but happiness will come along as you least expect it too.
i just want to be able to smile again..that's all..
Taking job interview calls from my cubicle this week. Dick move? Maybe. But there are three types of people in this world. Dicks, pussies, and assholes. I'm done being a pussy. Fuck these assholes.
My sister is such a bitch. She acts nice in front of people. But she always criticizes everything. She gets mad over petty things. She always finds me to pour her heart out but when i go to her she blames me for everything. She body shames me everyday. She gives me money and brings it up later. She’s nice for a second and the next second, she’s mad.
I'm the last of my friends to be a virgin (literally, I think I'm the only one in my group and we're all in our early 20's), and I'm honestly starting to believe it's never going to happen. I feel so awkward about it as well. Like, I know teenagers more sexually experienced than myself. And y'all don't even understand how insanely sexually frustrated I am. I just want to get it over with already.
I'm graduating college in four months and I have absolutely no fucking idea what I'm going to do with myself after. It's constantly in the back of my mind and it scares the shit out of me in all honesty.
I have this weird, really unhealthy relationship with food that I don't know how to control. I eat all the time, even when I'm not hungry. I binge for days on end. Sometimes I eat to the point where my stomach gets so full I feel like exploding, and end up making myself throw up. I do have these random moments in between where I control myself and eat healthy, do exercise, etc., but for the most part I just can't seem to control myself and end up falling back into these disgusting eating habits. I just wish I could make it stop.