Its hard to love a person who hasnt not done yet loving someone else.
It was never easy to move on.
hrngh. colonel, im trying to sneak around; but im dummy thicc and the clap from my ass cheeks keeps alerting the guards.
I'm going to learn my boyfriend's favorite piano pieces and play them for him one day,
idk why the hell girls always reject or ignore me...do they think they are special or some shit?
Kia is the worst car in the history of cars. Possibly ever. I have spent thousands of dollars on this car last year. The mechanic gave up. Taking it to the dealer. What the hell kills 3 fuel pumps in a single year? Is my parking spot built over an ancient Indian burial ground? Wtf?
Still missing him even tho he has a girlfriend. He left me hanging.
I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years now, before being with him I was with someone who cheated on me which has made me insanely insecure and horribly impacted my self-worth. So yesterday I asked him if he thought this person called Liv was pretty whom he was friends with in 2017, and he said "Liv was pretty sure, but I never thought she was pretty since being in a relationship with you, like I have said so many times I can't look at someone that way anymore, whether they're pretty or ugly is irrelevant" but just thinking about the fact that he used to think people before me were pretty makes my insides burn, and I know I shouldn't feel this way because it's irrational but I can't help it and it's starting to negatively affect our relationship. I also don't tell him but I secretly cry for hours and feel like absolute shit when he (rarely ever) meets up with female friends. So for my own sake and that of my relationship, how can I stop being so insecure.. ?
I used to watch porn around three or four times a day but now I'm just bored with it. I still watch it to masturbate around two or three times a week since I can only cum while watching it. It's a problem I've got. The other problem is that I'm nearly forty years old and can't talk to women, I'm too shy and lack self esteem. I'm afraid of women and the emotional and sexual frustration is killing me. The thing is that I'm just not good with people and relationships. My ex friends are a good example, I treated them like shit constantly when I had ptsd from doing chemo. I've repressed all the revolt because I had the disease and eventually snapped. I'm ranting. Sorry for the long confession.
I've been unreasonably horny a lot lately, like really frequently, and it's pissing me off because I can't satisfy myself. I need a partner's help and I don't have one. Physical needs aside, I'm also craving the emotional connection... Damn I hate being single.