So my family had a run in with a pedophile. The pedo and his wife joined a couples group that gets together and has ethnic food every weekend. For about a year I never really liked the guy. When he came over to our house he looked in the bedrooms, as if planning. Would frequently try to talk and play with the kids despite being about 50. My wife thought it was just because he was sad that his kids were moving out. One of them didn't even leave a forwarding address she just ghosted. You may have seen the Netflix movie Abducted in Plain Sight? He was clearly trying to apply similar grooming tactics. I have 2 young kids. He tried to make friends with me. Asking what sports team I liked so he could feign interest, asking me about politics so he could pretend to be "on the same side." He saw the arcade cabinet I'm building with my kids and offered me some of his kids old vintage videogames. He even tried to hit on my wife. Touching her hair and complimenting her cooking to the point it pissed off his wife. It pissed me off too. He would even pick up my kids and carry them around. Well, his eldest daughter filed a police report. He had to cop an Alfred plea to raping both his daughters since preschool. Now someone was suggesting we visit him in prison. Fugg that. I grew up poor, I know what prisoners do to pedos. If I'm visiting anyone, I'm visiting his cellmate to pass on what he's in for. They'll fix this problem real quick. Am I wrong here?
At my internship I am often done with all my work after 2 hours, so I spend the remaining 6 hours looking at my phone. I sometimes hammer my fingers on the keyboard a bit and click the mouse so the supervisors next door think I'm busy. When someone comes in I open a rewritten document and pretend to type some important stuff. It's awful, to be honest, because it's such a waste of time and I'm here to learn, but they just won't give me stuff to do. (For info: I have asked for tasks multiple times, but I've indirectly been told that if they notice that they can't find enough to do for me, they'll have to fire me.)
After coming to the realization that I can't have him... I don't really want anyone at all. I know this just sounds edgy and dramatic, but what I mean is, I really have no desire to even have a partner at this point. Not because I'm butthurt about not having him. I just... don't have the urge to be in a relationship. I'm kind of content on my own. Like of course I'm sad I didn't get a chance with him, but now I'm realizing that I don't really need a partner. I'd like sex (and more importantly, kisses and cuddles), but I don't want to deal with the emotional energy that relationships take. At least... not right now.
I talk to myself alot when no one eles is around. I pretend I'm talking to a therapist and then I just start reliving my life. All the times my step dad yelled and hit my for no reason. The time I was molested. My biological dad calling my from jail but then disappearing when he got out. How I had a friend I thought I would have for life but she fucked me over. How I got pregnant and relized I didnt know how to act or even raise a child so I feel like a failure as a mother. It always ends up with me crying cause I realize I dont really have anyone who I feel like really cares. I just annoy them or make them uncomfortable when I try and talk about my problems. I know going to an actual therapist could help me. But they are just a stranger who wants money I don't even have.
I just wanna see you once and I’ll move on with life in my country
period cramps are so fucking painful you have no idea, im crying on the floor clutching my stomach wishing someone would just stab me on the arm just so it could take my mind off my cramps
I'm thankful for another day
I'm happy thx u Jesus
I spent the night with my boyfriend and when I woke up this morning he was sitting on the edge of the bed looking out the window at the thunderstorm going on outside. I love thunderstorms, so it was a really pleasant thing to wake up to. Then when he turned around and saw that I was awake, he said good morning and started running his fingers through my hair. It was so nice and so calming that I accidentally fell back asleep for a few minutes, so he decided to wake me up by kissing me. Then I got on top of him and laid my head on his chest. I could hear his heartbeat and we just stayed like that for a while. I don’t know. It was just lovely.
I seriously need something to bring my energy back!!!!! 😭😭😭 fuck this group!