I'm very self conscious about certain parts of my body. I feel awkward just saying it, but specifically about my vagina and just my privates in general. It's just not . . nice enough looking to me. I really can't even watch porn without comparing myself to the women, cause my goods do NOT look like that. I mean, it's nothing abnormal. It's just some darker skin and not looking so smooth and just ugh. My friends think I'm weird for wanting to wax and bleach and whatever down there . . . but is it really weird? Don't people do that all the time? It can't be that bad. Yeah, the bleaching aspect sounds iffy but I'm willing to try anything honestly.
I thought he was going to live on forever
My best friend is going to marry and they only invited close relatives. A lot of people are, let's say, surprised at this but I'm thankful. I don't like weddings.
You're a grown man, old enough to have a grandson but act like a obnoxious child at board games and collectible card games. Games are supposed to be enjoyable and have a laugh with friends. Instead you have to win at any cost and if it means pissing everyone else so be it.
I don't know why I watch porn, i like women sexually but I'm also a misanthrope
I should kill myself, I don't care about nothing or anyone
I still look at women when I'm not at home but it's nothing like before. I want to have sex with some but that's it, I don't want to know them. Even if could get past my fear of talking to women I don't want them to know me cause I'm a retard and an asshole. People that know me well are aware of this. One of my female friends (she had a thing for me in the past) asked me once why I didn't had a gf which I replied that I don't want one because I don't want to drag anyone with me as I go into a downward spiral. Believe me when I tell you all that my life is going nowhere and I'm likely to disgrace myself rather than improve it even the slightest bit.
You think it's easy being me? I'm a disfuncional adult, never had a girlfriend or sex, had friends but pissed all of them and only three talk to me now (I hate one of them btw), can't drive because of my anxiety, can't get a job because of anxiety and the of not belonging anywhere. That's right: I am an outcast, a pariah and always have been since I can remember.
I hate my life so much and yet I don't do anything to improve it
sorry, but as black male, racism absolutely is more prevalent amongest whites than any other other race.