All the leaves are brown 🍁
I ran a mile today and after that, I'm sleepy and I couldn't do homework anymore.. My brain is just hella fried....
My medication for depression was my new third one but all of the meds is destroying my photographic memory.. In exams, I don't usually study, I look at the stuff and I know them all already but after these meds, it takes me three reads to know the concepts then I have to speak the ideas out lout then I get sleepy in the process... All I want is to just quit already because all the doctors want is to give me meds and stick with meds.. But I tried to rationalize the weight of both having it and not having it and not taking it is heavier... But the doctors is like no..
I get very frank with people and It's hard for me to be serious.. Not sure why.... So when I was presenting my ideas, I keep saying jokes to people out of no where. They're not like a toxic or offensive joke. People laugh but I feel bad because I feel like I'm not professional...
I think school sex education should do more than teachng the medical terms for genital anatomy and what the stages of a baby growing in an uterus are called. I think teachers should pull themselves together and actually discuss sex and intimacy and periods and everything that has to do with it. That way we maybe would have less grown up men (and, what is even sadder; women) who think a girl's pussy gets loose when she has more than two sexual partners, that masturbation is gross or that girls are gross for not washing their vagina with soap. And similar shit that you still hear. I know that in some schools it's already pretty well done, but it still isn't the standard and varies from teacher to teacher.
So my wife is Filipina and I'm European. She has recently got into some wiere Korean skin care stuff that lightens your skin. I think she's taking it too far. She's lighter than our kids now. I can't really talk to anyone about it. She mainly does it to flex on other Filipinos. Basically in their culture if you have a tan you are a redneck, and if you are lighter it means you have a high class indoor job like a bureacrat. I'm dropping hints about how I feel and I'm about a week away from making Michael Jackson jokes.
Someone suggested to me that in the early 00s we had cliques based on music. Punks, Emos, metalheads. But when the bottom fell out of the touring band industry we switched to politics to identify ourselves. Now all the teens have to line up as Commies, Nazis, Nazbol, Globohomo, or some other ridiculous political group. You don't like bands. You like politicians like Merkel, Duterte, Abe, and Clinton. Politicians love it. They get free volunteers for their campaign and you literally believe the enemy is a cartoon supervillain. This not even remotely sane. If we can't stand as one country, we will fall to a country who can.
Some of you might remember some posts I made about 6 months ago, and a few other times since then. My cat went missing and I was devastated. I did everything I could to find him, but every lead turned out to be a dead end. Flash back to last weekend. A strange number calls the house, and since the person's last name is Wine, my mom decides to answer out of curiosity. Ms. Wine says she has my cat. Skeptical, my mom asks some more questions... Ms. Wine got the phone number off of his tag. After 6 months, he somehow still had his collar on, and someone kind enough to call us found him. He's very overweight now (which leads me to believe somebody may have taken him, combined with the fact that he was unreasonably far away) but otherwise seems to be in good health. I'm so happy he's home. I'm so relieved that nothing terrible happened to him. I'm so blessed that I'm getting a second chance with him. This time, if I can help it, I'm keeping him indoors. I never wanted him to stay outside anyway, I just had to keep him out there because my mom made me.
I have to let go a person that never been mine.
I bought an android a few months back to replace my old iPhone 6s and to be honest, worst decision i ever made. It was on black friday, so i didnt spend a fortune, but it still sucks. The camera is (suprise) whack, it doesnt even run smoother than my old phone which is a pretty sad thing if you think about it. The only uprgade i have is the screen because OLED really does look pretty. I have a Pixel 3 but as soon as i get to my new job that thing goes straight to the trash. First i thought it was my mistake for choosing the pixel (which apperently has the best AI Camera on the market rn) but the new Samsung my friend has is just as useless.